My caricature...

During festival of life organised by us, a caricature teacher drew me.....some frens said it look like me, some said not..... i think d eyes r quite well drawn...hehe
it s soooo good to hv good drawing skill.... though i like to draw n learnt drawing for quite some years, my drawing skill s limited to copying things.. i can draw my hand very well by looking at it.. but without any model, i cant draw anything... so sad man......

Scary battle field....

Wow...scary scene.. haha... mummy, dun scold me ya!! this s only temporary... n now it s much better....

this s how my table look during exam period. Notes, Ten year series, calculator, hole puncher, sticky notes on the wall, motivating postcards, toilet roll for my runny nose, n........ hehe.... food! (a mug of milo, twisties, brownies, ginseng's brother-yang shen, breakfast cereal, cookies under table) to keep me awake...

below my table r newspapers tht until now i still hvn tidy up..............ow..scary man.....

Harsh reality

U may b deemed as good using this parameter, but not by the other parameter...
A good educator may not b a good administrater, so u r not deemed as a good teacher by certain institution. As simple as this.

Somebody told me sth which s quite true:
we r all measured by bell curve when we r students, but not when u r in the workforce.
this means if ur results r not good, as long as u r not that bad compared to the others, then u r ok. But this doesnt apply to working environment. So, if u r in a team in ur company, n unluckily whole of d team dont perform well, even if u r d best of them, u wil b fired........there s no relative standard, but only ABSOLUTE standard. This s reality. So b glad that i m still a student, n b prepared that i m entering workforce soon, in a few years time...
N there s sth i realise abt the land i m standing on now-- scholars r to b groomed
GROOMED means trained to hv better performance. How? do more work. Consequence? u will b GROOMED!! but STRESSED!!

I salute those who dare to make their decisions to leave behind wat they used to n pursue wat they want. Really.

N dun b sad when somebody say u r not playing ur role well. As long as u hv done ur best, there mz b somebody that think that u r d best. At least u urself will think so......



hazy day...... PSI 140..... n i m saying all these very very heavy things...

十个月的生活。。

不知不觉来新加坡读书也有十个月了，感觉上好像才来了不久，呵呵。。可能是生活步伐太快了，快到没时间去停下来看看身边发生了什么。。。终于考完升级考试了，课外活动也还没恢复练习，所以赶紧捉住这一点点的空档来看一看。

初院的生活可说是超级多姿多彩，所以我的生活里挤满了课业，课外活动，community work involvement，宿舍生活，社交。每一样都很累人，每一样都让我学到了很多人生的道理。

课业上，我了解到强中自由强中手，一山还比一山高。现在我的课业成绩和以前简直是天渊之别，呵呵(苦笑)。以前考试对我来说就是一场小测试，差别只在于做的有多好（不是说我厉害，而是说中学时的难度和现在来比真的是差太远了！！）。现在每一个测验考试都是一大挑战，差别在于及格与不及格。。。。现在的我真的是和以前相差很多，以前简直就是懒到没话说！然而，我和其他人比起来，我就像是以前的我，他们像现在的我。。了解我再说什么吗？就是用功程度：以前的我-现在的我-现在的他们。每一个“-”都是一个超级大差别。所以现在的我还是懒惰的。。。咳，狗改不了吃屎（干吗说自己是屎啊。。 ）

这里的课外活动可不是盖的，我参加的口琴社已经算是挺轻松的了，每个星期还是要花上6，7个小时练习。。。可以想象我学校连得最勤的课外活动—合唱团有多么累人吗？难怪他们可以获得世界奥林比克合唱冠军。。。和其他在马来西亚读私人学院A level的朋友比起来，这里比较累的地方就是课外活动吧？还有还有，这里的体育可真是吓死人，女生的都已经很累了，男生得简直就是。。。唉好可怜啊。。。

宿舍生活对我来说真的是一大挑战，因为以前在家里我都是一个人呆在家，一个人睡一间房间。现在我的房间是六人房，总共来自3个国家。哇，还没来之前真的是不敢想象要怎样面对这样的生活，可是现在不也是住得好好的？既来之，则安之！况且现在我也挺享受这样的宿舍生活，每天吃饭都有人陪，上课大家一起坐校车去，放学一起搭地铁，挺不错的啦！只是有时候当房间肮脏有些人去不肯打扫时，还是周末早晨七早八早就被门开开关关的声音吵醒时觉得很烦人，其他都还好。前几天还和几个比较要好的室友把重到要命的两张床和并在一起，三个人同床共枕呢！呵呵。。很久没有这样了。。。真开心！

来到这里，认识的每一个人都是之前完全没听说，没见过的。一开始觉得应该不错的人渐渐的才看清真面目，一些本来觉得很和蔼的人其实脾气很坏，一些看起来觉得很蠢的人其实是很聪明的超级大好人。。。。哇。。。真是人不可貌相，海水不可斗量！到现在我都还在摸索每一个人骨子里到底是个怎样的人。。

总的来说，我还是比较喜欢中学时住在家里有妈妈爸爸在身边，身旁的朋友都是很熟悉的人，那种感觉真得很好噢！现在。。。。也不错啦，人总要学着长大不是吗？加油哦凯怡！

My long "lost" cousin

i hv a cousin whom i didn meet for around 11 years.. she s a singaporean, 1 year younger than me, single child at home.. when we were young, we used to b very close.. whenever she came pontian, she wud meet me n we clicked off well.. since she s d only child, she really want frens.. so i bcame her play partner... however, her mum doesnt like us malaysian, o rather bcos her relationship v my cousin's grandma (my grandaunt) s nt good, then she stopped her coming pontian (n also bcos we started primary sch, so no much time also....) so.. we jz didnt meet until now...
from her grandma she knew i came 2 study in singapore, she immediately asked her grandma 4 my hp nuimber.. late at night u know.. but some how my hp number jz didnt get to her hand.. maynb her mum stopped it..
sunday nite, i was quite free so i jz online n search things.. then i suddenly tot of her.. so i asked my mum her surname n her sch name.. guess wat? i found her blog!! then i saw her pict in frenster.. erm..look quite different, but stil can c her features.. then i post a msg there v my email address, asking her whether she rmb me...
n yesterday jz b4 i came back singapore, i received her reply n she added me in msn.. then we "xiang1 ren4"~!!! very dramatic right? wow cool.... then due 2 time constraint, we didnt chat much.. we exchange hp number.. n huh.. i knew her mass dance partner, who s a scholar from jb! n she knew my hostel fren, who studied in her sch b4! she was invited by her fren to join asean dance, but she didnt go bcos she got performance... her sch s located at d same road as my hostel... which takes around 10 bus ride..damn near right? yet we ddn meet each other b4.. or rather, even if we meet we also cannot recognise.. haha.....

really very dramatic.....

from lu bo, i knew tt she s a very bubbly n talkative gal, same as me..haha.. budden i think she s doing better than me cos she seemed to enjoy NJ life, s a councillor, n join malay dance..
hope to c her soon!

hehe...my poor abandoned blog...

finally promo s over!! finally hv some time to do sth bo liao a bit..
my poor blog uh... sorry ya... i hv been neglected u for soooooo long

yesterday nite when i was listening radio, i heard d DJ saying tt if every nite when u turn in, u can get into sleep within 10 minutes, tt means u r seriously lack of sleeep.... n i realise nowadays i can jz get into sleep no matter wat my roommate does... straight away pengsan, Through out d promo exam, i didn suffer frm insomnia also... so happy..haha... can get into sleeep s sth very torturing... now? haha giv me more time 2 sleep pls..
the DJ carried on saying tt those who can get into sleep in less than 10 minutes, that means u wud need around 17 hours more sleep.... wow that's scary! so i went to sleep early, even though i was asked to do a detailed outline for my group's written report...wat d helll..i really cant stand n i jz sleep (well.... around 11.30pm lah.. not very early also...after did some of the outline...)
then, right after 5.5 hours (cos normally i sleep for 5.5 hours at night) i woke up on my own... omg my life s soo pathetic..even i can sleep more i also cant sleep more!! went to toilet n carry on sleeping
then jz after a while i heard my hp alarm...haiz..dun want 2 wake up.. so i turned it off... heard some alarms later, my roommates'...but still nobody woke up...carry on my dream..
then...heard some very india-slanged conversation... ~~~it s 6.25 now??

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
everyone in my room jz jump up from d bed n rush to toilet...while changing, we gals kept on laughing.. bcos d conversation s qute soft, n we all actually heard it..tt means we were not sleeping!!! hahaha....luckily we all wasnt late for sch bus.....ahaha

well.........still super tired now...hv 2 stay in sch somemore..4896 man....