UK trip

Back from UK for a few days dy.. Post some beautiful pics here 1st before i write my journal =)

睡不着。。

Maybe it is due to jet lag, or due to excess sleeping, or the cups of chinese tea, I cant get into sleep tonight~
It s 5.57am now, which means i din sleep at all for the whole night
Stayed up till around 3am, watching grey's anatomy season4
Then tried to get some sleep... My brain din want to sleep yet.. keep on thinking about uni application, employment, relationships~

Got up at about 4.30am, to apply uni..
Finally applied to NUS n NTU
Hopefully I was conscious enough to make the right decision
Hopefully I can get my 1st choice
Hopefully my ambition is really my ambition

Wanna sleep dy, good night
Nope, good morning i should say =)

大选过后。。

大选过后在笨珍拍到的照片...
国阵的成绩连交通灯都惊讶到忘记怎样运作了？

不是啦~这是常常出现的情况
反正马来西亚人就是厉害，随机应变，交通灯坏了还是知道怎样驾车的=）

面对这么多的选择，我该何去何从？

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth

下一步

成绩出来了！--我指的是我的考试成绩，不是大选成绩啦~
我这个人，真的是很有考试运。以前考ASEAN scholarship的时候，很多成绩平时比我好的人都靠不上，我却幸运到拿到一个不敢奢望的奖学金~
对我的成绩还算满意，但是有一点怀疑自己能不能进到NUSpharmacy..
看到我的成绩单，妈妈和舅母问我想不想读finance, business之类的，她们觉得我的性格也还蛮适合的，而且可以赚很多钱，呵呵。。
昨天去了教育展，申请了3间澳洲大学。如果拿不到NUSpharmacy, 然后又不想念别的科系，我就得等到明年2月去澳洲了
忽然发现，以前很向往的NTU school of information and communication其实好像很容易进！之前认为我的GP一定没办法达到入学要求。。现在竟然也可以进了。。所以。。要还是不要呢？。。。

下一步棋，该怎么走？

Typing speed

60 words

Speed test

then.. second try...
69 words

Speed test

haha.. i guess this s really my best dy~~
must practise..
how?? via MSN? haha...

既期待又怕受伤害~

就是这个星期五了~！
A level成绩就要出来了。。。
我两年的心血。。虽然成绩并不代表一切，但也是非常非常重要的~！！
不像UPSR, PMR, SPM, 这个A level真的是决定我的未来的一个重要因素
然而，这也是我考过最没有把握的考试
之前那些考试，如果有B的出现就是坏消息了。。
这次。。。如果没有C就算是好消息了~至少我是这样认为的
如果。。我拿到3A2B或更好的话，我就会大肆庆祝！
如果。。看到C的话。。GP或econs的话，我就认了。。
如果。。chemistry biology mathematics任何一个是C的话。。各位，请不要来烦我。。

我。。要。。庆祝！

haiz...

Today, i brought my students to the science lab for the first time..
It was jz a simple experiment, to measure the time needed for a pendulum to oscillate 10times..

Originally the class has 40+ students, so we split e class into two, one taken by me, the other by another relief teacher. As i need to rush the class to finish the experiment so that the other half of the class can come in, I did not check the apparatus before letting the class to leave e classroom~
After both sessions, we found that a stopwatch is lost..
I dunno the stopwatch was lost during which session, as both of us did not check the apparatus did not check after or before the experiment~
Big mistake
should not repeat it again~!!

Omg... jz a stopwatch, n y did they even want to steal it?
Another teacher helped me to search the students' bag.. nothing is found
I din like the idea of searching their bags, but i had no choice but to do it


The stopwatch cant b found, n the whole class has to pay for it..
Partly my fault....

尊师重道?

今天我发考卷给学生..三班里面,及格率不超过10巴仙
我没有骂他们,一句都没有,只有称赞那些考得比较好的学生(但都是"低空飞过"....)
结果,发生了2件小小的,但是却让我感触良多的事

学生:I want to scold the teacher!! Count my marks wrong! I want to scold! Must scold!
我: Which one? Can you show me? Sorry for the mistake because I had to mark many papers..
(检查后发现我少算了一分)
学生: See? I must scold!
我：So you think you can, and should, scold the teacher?

什么道理，学生骂老师？过分！孔子，请你教我怎样教好这样的学生~

第二件事：中二normal tech
没有几个人及格，不要紧，我和学生做改正
结果，叽喳的忙说话，爱动的到处逛街，顽皮的作弄别人，爱美的照镜子梳头
我看了受不了，这种烂成绩还用这种烂态度来上课？!!
骂得很凶，全班安静，乖乖看着我，上课
2分钟后，我发现全班眼神恍惚，好像灵魂出窍~原来没有人在听课
我为了试看他们到底有没有在听，慢慢把声量放小，小到几乎没有声音
他们，真的一点反应都没有！
原来，没有人在听
我说，你们不听，那我也不必说下去了
学生竟然回答，对啰，你不要讲话啦....

原来，学生喜欢不教书的老师。。。。

The importance of family...

Since I teach in a neighbourhood secondary schools, I noticed that many students that have discipline problems actually come from problematic family.. Some of their parents do not even care about how are their kids doing, some leave all the teachings to the school, some spoil the kids to the extent where the kids do not know what is respect.. So they ended up to b some kind of "monster" in teachers' and peers' eyes.. Get scolded everyday, hated by classmates.. N the saddest part is that they dun even know that they are not behaving...

Suddenly I feel so glad and lucky to get a wonderful family. Mum works, but she managed to take great care of us. Dad loves us in his way.. And my siblings are close v each other, so far no major problems... Family is the most important part that shapes us!

I hope, and I will, try my best to give my children a good environment to grow up...

空

我想，我应该患上了“佳节后综合症”。。。
农历新年再加上我自己另外申请的假期期间，我过得很开心，与家人朋友等一起欢度佳节，沉浸在爱里头。。。
现在，假期结束，我又回到了原本的生活--不，这好像不是我的生活~
人在新加坡，住在舅舅家，早上去学校教书，下午过后就一个人呆在家里。
同事的年龄和人生经验和我不太一样，所以他们就真的是我的“同事”，还不是朋友，因为没什么共同的话题。唯一比较合得来的同时在之前的华文部，现在的science department真的是没人理我~所以呢，上班对我来说就是上班赚钱，不敢希望我这个临时教师可以改变学生什么，只希望他们不一下子就会周公去了~
回到家，一个人，看看电视上上网。。
晚餐，我总是一个人吃，真得很讨厌这种滋味。以前在宿舍的时候总是要找人陪我吃的。
等到很晚了舅舅舅母和表弟才回来。。他们也很少说话。。上床，睡觉，早上起床再重复这样的生活。
周末是很开心的，因为可以回家。。家很温暖，哥哥妈妈爱和我聊天，爸爸不说话但静静地听我滔滔不绝。妈妈住的菜很好吃。回到笨珍随便都可以找朋友出来聚一聚。真的很开心。可是星期日又得回到新加坡了。。

不知道这样的生活还要重复多久呢？难道我真的要等到明年2月才去澳洲念书吗？
竟然开始想念起初院时那种忙到不知道时间的日子，很充实，很踏实，因为我知道我在为我的未来努力。被朋友围绕的感觉，像是在冷冷的冬夜过着厚厚的被单，暖洋洋的。。。
现在我都不知道我每一天要达成什么目标~
原来，没有目标，充满未知数的生活不好玩 =（
生活好空，少了一点什么。。

我知道换一个想法我就可以很开心了：工作时间短，工作轻松，薪水不错，离家近每个星期可以回家，还有舅舅设备完善的家可以住，家庭和谐，可以出国念书，有爱我的人关心着我。
但是，我现在就是不会这样想啊！

负面的想法好像实验室里的氯气泄漏，久久挥之不去。。。

$$$

Tmr s e last day that i hv to work to get my 1st salary in my life..
so, dun mention abt how students nearly drive me crazy today, but think abt how m i going to use e money

since papa n mama do not need my money for new year or anything, n i think they wud seriously laugh at me if i giv them money.. there s also too much new year stuff at home, i think.. hehe.. i can spend money on myself..

So, i shall spend some money on things tt i find it "sinful" if i use my parents' money..
1. Watch a few movies --- ok this one not so sinful lah.. i do watch movies using parents' money
2. Buy myself a necklace-- I hv been wearing mum's necklace since prom night.. like it a lot.. dun bear to return mum.. so i shall buy one for myself or mum to exchange =)
3. Travel! -- fine.. i know my salary s insignificant compared to fares tt i hv to pay to go UK.. but UK trip.. is sponsored by parents, n sis wud take k of my accomodation n food (guess so!).. i m planning for trips around malaysia n even neighbour countries (definitely not singapore~~)
4. A few good books... din buy book tt r not related to academics for a long time.. my previous bday present from frens really aroused my interest to read again... but this time perhaps not so many chinese books, but english~

hoho.....
my mood s really good now!
1st salary s coming in~~!!!!
yohoo~!!

(alright.. currently i m stil quite broke, hv to wait til abt 14 feb--valentine's day?? bfore i can get e input in my bank account)

omg~

Alright~ I know I shouldn’t blog during office hour~ but then I m seriously zha dao today..

Went to teach a Sec1 Normal class Chinese… omg there were 3boys who were extremely naughty~ wah.. cannot stand them, I know I wud “lose” if I shout, but then I jz cant control their noise level n I shouted at them—meaning I scolded them for a few minutes loudly~

They jz couldn’t stop talking, moving around n disturb each other

I punished them, make them sit in front, they din bother also~ i think this s e bad part abt not being able to cane students. Last time when I was a primary sch kid, I was so afraid of teachers—because of their canes. I also wonder y they hv such thick skins. I used to feel so embarrassed when I was scolded or punished by teachers. Jz a single sentence could make me feel so bad~ but they r totally reverser.. seemed like they even enjoyed my scoldings~!!!

They r so kaypo~ wanting to know my personal details

So, in sch, I m officially 25 years old, married, v 3 kids (ok in some classes i m “not married, hv boyfren).. I m preparing a reason y I dun wear ring—I need to do housework, so I dun wear ring

I think I hv to act old, act like a mum~ then they dun take me as a jie jie who can b bullied easily

I wil roar like a tigress if needed. SO DUN PLAY PLAY V ME!!

New Year mood

肉干。。。饼干。。。大扫除。。。门彩。。。新年要到了！！
有一段时期，大概是中学的时候，开始觉得新年有点没意思
大概是因为那个时候哥哥姐姐都在国外，朋友都还在笨珍，天天见面，所以新年不过是多几天的假期，多很多食物。。。
后来，中学毕业了，同学开始到外地念书，新年正是一个好时候让大家聚一聚
以前过年见面都是在初三初四，可是现在都提前了--初一初二就要快快出来拜年了，初三就得收拾心情和行囊回去念书了~~
新年快乐！

heng ar....

this morning, i woke up very early.. i looked at my hp, it says 540am.. saw e little "Alarm clock" icon on e screen, ok..i did set alarm
so.. i continued sleeping~
after a while, i woke up again~ looked at e hp, it says 615am
i was thinking.. ok.. jz a while more it s going to ring~
i fell asleep again.. not really sleeping, but jz blur~~
then after some time, i was thinking, eh? how come it s not ringing? i better check e time now!
i looked at hp, omg it s 630am!!
how come my hp din ring?
i checked again....

wah i set it to 625PM!!!
siao ah~~ if i din wake up automatically, i wud oversleep!!!!
imagine.. teacher oversleeps~~ students wait in class~~ omg omg scary

but HENG　ａｈ！！！！　somehow i jz woke up.. hoho thank god!!!!

A lovely bird

Today, when i came back from work, i saw a lovely green bird on e window pane of my uncle's neighbour's house.. Wow.. it s so beautiful! n it din fly away even i moved near to it, took its pic. So cute! but i think this bird s a bit dumb~ it shud learn to protect itself, my dear..

mayb it s injured... cannot fly.. mayb it jz knew tt i m a good person who wont harm it~

hehe..

Weekends at home

Since now i m working in sg, from mon to fri only, i go back home every friday
So, wat do i do at home??

My typical weekend:
Friday:
By the time i reach, it wud b around 5pm. So i shower, take a nap, dinner.
Dinners r usually so-so on fridays, cos mum needs to work
After dinner, watch tv, read Sinchew Daily of e week
Then sleep early cos it s rare to b able to sleep early!!
Somemore, i get to hug my dear soft toy bear n sleep on my lovely bed!!!! wow!!

Saturday:
Wake up at around 9am, since no1 wud disturb me
Mum wud even put down e curtains for me.. so nice
Breakfast.. normally s bought by mum, brought back by dad
Then prepare my lunch
Watch drama series downloaded throughout e week using home pc
Read papers..housework.. online..
Late afternoon.. mum n dad come back. chat. prepare dinner. eat snacks
Bro comes back.. dinner(sat dinners r ALWAYZ sumptious!! cos mum has more time to cookk!!)
Chat.. drink chinese tea.. internet
sometimes go out to buy stuff v family
Sleep!!

Sunday:
Wake up at around 9am again. Go out for breakfast v grandma.
Come back, prepare lunch, watch movies, read...
Lunch (normally i m still full at this moment)
Then prepare to come back singapore
Reminders n reminders r all around.. Post-it notes written "Charger", "Sandals" r everywhere cos i tend to forget things~~
Reach uncle's house, sit in front of my laptop n slowly spend e remaining hours of my weekends...

ya this s how i spend my weekends...
slack~~ hohoho....
but then i think this s not a good way
no exercise, no meaningful activities except family bonding

Any suggestion to help me to force myself into exercising??

十年树木，百年树人

老师很伟大。真的。记得你第一天去念书时，在幼儿园里面笨笨的，什么都不会吗？
现在，你所会东西可真多呢。。多亏老师耐心的教导。。。

才当了几天的老师，我就喉咙痛，豆沙声，流鼻水了。。。
各种各样的学生都有，有些上课专心10分钟都难，有些讲话讲不停，有些平时讲话大声要他回答问题时却小声到像蚂蚁一样~~

刚才改了一班中三生的“校园报道”。。。。超过一半给我记叙文，有些不知道到底文章是在表达什么。。。有些还要先翻译成英文后我才知道他们想要写的是什么。有的经过我的批改后，变得面目全非，根本就是我在帮他写~~~

然后又改了练习题，刚才在班上已经和他们讨论答案了，交上来的答案很多还是错的~~~我刚才是在向空气讲话吗？~~~~~~~~我晕~~~~~~~~~~~

各位老师，祝你们身体健康，长命百岁！！不要轻易吐血~~~~


谢谢那些曾经教过我的老师。。。教我应该不会很难吧？？但愿我的学生都像小时候的我一样听话。。。（臭美！！！）

告别2007

今天是2007的最后第二天了。。回顾2007，对我来说今年过得还蛮充实的！（当然啦~有哪一个jc学生的生活是空荡荡的~)

2007我做过的，比较特别的的事(not in chronological order...)

1. Our first concert--Harmoc n guitar concert 2007! my effort s all there! n also Singapore Youth Festival!!

2.sandcastle building--hello? not small one, but big ones!!

3.walked from AJC to sembawang beach-- twice!! (chased by dogs at 3am~~)

4. slept at pavilion twice--once at sembawang park, once at east coast park

5.cycled at 2am~ at east coast park

6. stayed up e whole night, clubbing, McDonald-ing, sitting by SIngapore River

7. Drank alcohol in a pub(well, one sip only~i m a good gal pls~)

8. Went geylang, saw a prostitute who looked like 50-year-old sailormoon

9. Went sentosa a few mins after some1's suggestion, during A level period

10. Spent most of my non-sleeping time in study room for months..

11. The most number of times i cried in a within e certain period-- so stressful.. so sad.. so touched.. in dilemma.. anger....so many things for me to cry

12. Survived through my A level!!

13. Performed in oldham hall performance fest-- as an auntie~, oldham hall drama--ke lei fe only lah~~

13. Prom!

14. Watched e so-far-most-beautiful-i-ever-seen fireworks in sg

15. Left Oldham Hall.. n din cry when i left!!

There r also things tt were really memorable, which are either too sad for me to mention, or jz i find them unsuitable to b posted here. But no doubt, they are carved deeply on my heart.

SO, 2008 s coming!!

This s really gonna b a year v uncertainties. I dunno wat i wil b doing in this year, where wil i b staying.. will i b studying o working or travelling or wandering? wat r my temporary jobs--teacher or DJ or babysitter or jz some operator? will i b studying in sg or australia or malaysia? will i b studying pharmacy or speech pathology or health science or media?

For 1 thing i know, I m gonna b Happy!! this s wat i really can choose without hesitation!!

2008 HERE I COME!!!

叫我许老师！！

我要当老师了。。。在新加坡一件邻里中学教华文和生物。我是这间学校的唯一一个teaching intern!!!教华文应该没问题吧！生物？呵呵，要开始读中学的生物课本了。
昨天去了中学看看，校园挺小的，教职员人数好像也不多。见了我的supervising teacher,是母语部的主任。和她聊了很多，包括她的教学宗旨，我的责任，接下来母语部要推行的计划等。她还告诉我这间学校的学生有时会很顽皮，老师说什么都听不进去，有些还会顶嘴。（主任说我是辩论员，面对顶嘴的学生应该不会有问题~）
看来我这一个月有很多事情可以忙的了。从来没想过我的第一份工会是教书，而且老板还是新加坡教育部。呵呵，昨晚新闻报道新加坡教师薪金将增加，拥有3年经验的教师年薪有5万多块新币。。。不错不错。。会不会有一天我去当老师呢？看看我这一个月来的表现吧！
新年后我就要去NIE上3天的课，然后观察一个星期，接下来就我上阵教书了！加油哦！