睡不着。。

Maybe it is due to jet lag, or due to excess sleeping, or the cups of chinese tea, I cant get into sleep tonight~
It s 5.57am now, which means i din sleep at all for the whole night
Stayed up till around 3am, watching grey's anatomy season4
Then tried to get some sleep... My brain din want to sleep yet.. keep on thinking about uni application, employment, relationships~

Got up at about 4.30am, to apply uni..
Finally applied to NUS n NTU
Hopefully I was conscious enough to make the right decision
Hopefully I can get my 1st choice
Hopefully my ambition is really my ambition

Wanna sleep dy, good night
Nope, good morning i should say =)

大选过后。。

大选过后在笨珍拍到的照片...
国阵的成绩连交通灯都惊讶到忘记怎样运作了？

不是啦~这是常常出现的情况
反正马来西亚人就是厉害，随机应变，交通灯坏了还是知道怎样驾车的=）

面对这么多的选择，我该何去何从？

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth

下一步

成绩出来了！--我指的是我的考试成绩，不是大选成绩啦~
我这个人，真的是很有考试运。以前考ASEAN scholarship的时候，很多成绩平时比我好的人都靠不上，我却幸运到拿到一个不敢奢望的奖学金~
对我的成绩还算满意，但是有一点怀疑自己能不能进到NUSpharmacy..
看到我的成绩单，妈妈和舅母问我想不想读finance, business之类的，她们觉得我的性格也还蛮适合的，而且可以赚很多钱，呵呵。。
昨天去了教育展，申请了3间澳洲大学。如果拿不到NUSpharmacy, 然后又不想念别的科系，我就得等到明年2月去澳洲了
忽然发现，以前很向往的NTU school of information and communication其实好像很容易进！之前认为我的GP一定没办法达到入学要求。。现在竟然也可以进了。。所以。。要还是不要呢？。。。

下一步棋，该怎么走？

Typing speed

60 words

Speed test

then.. second try...
69 words

Speed test

haha.. i guess this s really my best dy~~
must practise..
how?? via MSN? haha...

既期待又怕受伤害~

就是这个星期五了~！
A level成绩就要出来了。。。
我两年的心血。。虽然成绩并不代表一切，但也是非常非常重要的~！！
不像UPSR, PMR, SPM, 这个A level真的是决定我的未来的一个重要因素
然而，这也是我考过最没有把握的考试
之前那些考试，如果有B的出现就是坏消息了。。
这次。。。如果没有C就算是好消息了~至少我是这样认为的
如果。。我拿到3A2B或更好的话，我就会大肆庆祝！
如果。。看到C的话。。GP或econs的话，我就认了。。
如果。。chemistry biology mathematics任何一个是C的话。。各位，请不要来烦我。。

我。。要。。庆祝！

haiz...

Today, i brought my students to the science lab for the first time..
It was jz a simple experiment, to measure the time needed for a pendulum to oscillate 10times..

Originally the class has 40+ students, so we split e class into two, one taken by me, the other by another relief teacher. As i need to rush the class to finish the experiment so that the other half of the class can come in, I did not check the apparatus before letting the class to leave e classroom~
After both sessions, we found that a stopwatch is lost..
I dunno the stopwatch was lost during which session, as both of us did not check the apparatus did not check after or before the experiment~
Big mistake
should not repeat it again~!!

Omg... jz a stopwatch, n y did they even want to steal it?
Another teacher helped me to search the students' bag.. nothing is found
I din like the idea of searching their bags, but i had no choice but to do it


The stopwatch cant b found, n the whole class has to pay for it..
Partly my fault....

尊师重道?

今天我发考卷给学生..三班里面,及格率不超过10巴仙
我没有骂他们,一句都没有,只有称赞那些考得比较好的学生(但都是"低空飞过"....)
结果,发生了2件小小的,但是却让我感触良多的事

学生:I want to scold the teacher!! Count my marks wrong! I want to scold! Must scold!
我: Which one? Can you show me? Sorry for the mistake because I had to mark many papers..
(检查后发现我少算了一分)
学生: See? I must scold!
我：So you think you can, and should, scold the teacher?

什么道理，学生骂老师？过分！孔子，请你教我怎样教好这样的学生~

第二件事：中二normal tech
没有几个人及格，不要紧，我和学生做改正
结果，叽喳的忙说话，爱动的到处逛街，顽皮的作弄别人，爱美的照镜子梳头
我看了受不了，这种烂成绩还用这种烂态度来上课？!!
骂得很凶，全班安静，乖乖看着我，上课
2分钟后，我发现全班眼神恍惚，好像灵魂出窍~原来没有人在听课
我为了试看他们到底有没有在听，慢慢把声量放小，小到几乎没有声音
他们，真的一点反应都没有！
原来，没有人在听
我说，你们不听，那我也不必说下去了
学生竟然回答，对啰，你不要讲话啦....

原来，学生喜欢不教书的老师。。。。

The importance of family...

Since I teach in a neighbourhood secondary schools, I noticed that many students that have discipline problems actually come from problematic family.. Some of their parents do not even care about how are their kids doing, some leave all the teachings to the school, some spoil the kids to the extent where the kids do not know what is respect.. So they ended up to b some kind of "monster" in teachers' and peers' eyes.. Get scolded everyday, hated by classmates.. N the saddest part is that they dun even know that they are not behaving...

Suddenly I feel so glad and lucky to get a wonderful family. Mum works, but she managed to take great care of us. Dad loves us in his way.. And my siblings are close v each other, so far no major problems... Family is the most important part that shapes us!

I hope, and I will, try my best to give my children a good environment to grow up...

空

我想，我应该患上了“佳节后综合症”。。。
农历新年再加上我自己另外申请的假期期间，我过得很开心，与家人朋友等一起欢度佳节，沉浸在爱里头。。。
现在，假期结束，我又回到了原本的生活--不，这好像不是我的生活~
人在新加坡，住在舅舅家，早上去学校教书，下午过后就一个人呆在家里。
同事的年龄和人生经验和我不太一样，所以他们就真的是我的“同事”，还不是朋友，因为没什么共同的话题。唯一比较合得来的同时在之前的华文部，现在的science department真的是没人理我~所以呢，上班对我来说就是上班赚钱，不敢希望我这个临时教师可以改变学生什么，只希望他们不一下子就会周公去了~
回到家，一个人，看看电视上上网。。
晚餐，我总是一个人吃，真得很讨厌这种滋味。以前在宿舍的时候总是要找人陪我吃的。
等到很晚了舅舅舅母和表弟才回来。。他们也很少说话。。上床，睡觉，早上起床再重复这样的生活。
周末是很开心的，因为可以回家。。家很温暖，哥哥妈妈爱和我聊天，爸爸不说话但静静地听我滔滔不绝。妈妈住的菜很好吃。回到笨珍随便都可以找朋友出来聚一聚。真的很开心。可是星期日又得回到新加坡了。。

不知道这样的生活还要重复多久呢？难道我真的要等到明年2月才去澳洲念书吗？
竟然开始想念起初院时那种忙到不知道时间的日子，很充实，很踏实，因为我知道我在为我的未来努力。被朋友围绕的感觉，像是在冷冷的冬夜过着厚厚的被单，暖洋洋的。。。
现在我都不知道我每一天要达成什么目标~
原来，没有目标，充满未知数的生活不好玩 =（
生活好空，少了一点什么。。

我知道换一个想法我就可以很开心了：工作时间短，工作轻松，薪水不错，离家近每个星期可以回家，还有舅舅设备完善的家可以住，家庭和谐，可以出国念书，有爱我的人关心着我。
但是，我现在就是不会这样想啊！

负面的想法好像实验室里的氯气泄漏，久久挥之不去。。。

$$$

Tmr s e last day that i hv to work to get my 1st salary in my life..
so, dun mention abt how students nearly drive me crazy today, but think abt how m i going to use e money

since papa n mama do not need my money for new year or anything, n i think they wud seriously laugh at me if i giv them money.. there s also too much new year stuff at home, i think.. hehe.. i can spend money on myself..

So, i shall spend some money on things tt i find it "sinful" if i use my parents' money..
1. Watch a few movies --- ok this one not so sinful lah.. i do watch movies using parents' money
2. Buy myself a necklace-- I hv been wearing mum's necklace since prom night.. like it a lot.. dun bear to return mum.. so i shall buy one for myself or mum to exchange =)
3. Travel! -- fine.. i know my salary s insignificant compared to fares tt i hv to pay to go UK.. but UK trip.. is sponsored by parents, n sis wud take k of my accomodation n food (guess so!).. i m planning for trips around malaysia n even neighbour countries (definitely not singapore~~)
4. A few good books... din buy book tt r not related to academics for a long time.. my previous bday present from frens really aroused my interest to read again... but this time perhaps not so many chinese books, but english~

hoho.....
my mood s really good now!
1st salary s coming in~~!!!!
yohoo~!!

(alright.. currently i m stil quite broke, hv to wait til abt 14 feb--valentine's day?? bfore i can get e input in my bank account)

omg~

Alright~ I know I shouldn’t blog during office hour~ but then I m seriously zha dao today..

Went to teach a Sec1 Normal class Chinese… omg there were 3boys who were extremely naughty~ wah.. cannot stand them, I know I wud “lose” if I shout, but then I jz cant control their noise level n I shouted at them—meaning I scolded them for a few minutes loudly~

They jz couldn’t stop talking, moving around n disturb each other

I punished them, make them sit in front, they din bother also~ i think this s e bad part abt not being able to cane students. Last time when I was a primary sch kid, I was so afraid of teachers—because of their canes. I also wonder y they hv such thick skins. I used to feel so embarrassed when I was scolded or punished by teachers. Jz a single sentence could make me feel so bad~ but they r totally reverser.. seemed like they even enjoyed my scoldings~!!!

They r so kaypo~ wanting to know my personal details

So, in sch, I m officially 25 years old, married, v 3 kids (ok in some classes i m “not married, hv boyfren).. I m preparing a reason y I dun wear ring—I need to do housework, so I dun wear ring

I think I hv to act old, act like a mum~ then they dun take me as a jie jie who can b bullied easily

I wil roar like a tigress if needed. SO DUN PLAY PLAY V ME!!

New Year mood

肉干。。。饼干。。。大扫除。。。门彩。。。新年要到了！！
有一段时期，大概是中学的时候，开始觉得新年有点没意思
大概是因为那个时候哥哥姐姐都在国外，朋友都还在笨珍，天天见面，所以新年不过是多几天的假期，多很多食物。。。
后来，中学毕业了，同学开始到外地念书，新年正是一个好时候让大家聚一聚
以前过年见面都是在初三初四，可是现在都提前了--初一初二就要快快出来拜年了，初三就得收拾心情和行囊回去念书了~~
新年快乐！

heng ar....

this morning, i woke up very early.. i looked at my hp, it says 540am.. saw e little "Alarm clock" icon on e screen, ok..i did set alarm
so.. i continued sleeping~
after a while, i woke up again~ looked at e hp, it says 615am
i was thinking.. ok.. jz a while more it s going to ring~
i fell asleep again.. not really sleeping, but jz blur~~
then after some time, i was thinking, eh? how come it s not ringing? i better check e time now!
i looked at hp, omg it s 630am!!
how come my hp din ring?
i checked again....

wah i set it to 625PM!!!
siao ah~~ if i din wake up automatically, i wud oversleep!!!!
imagine.. teacher oversleeps~~ students wait in class~~ omg omg scary

but HENG　ａｈ！！！！　somehow i jz woke up.. hoho thank god!!!!

A lovely bird

Today, when i came back from work, i saw a lovely green bird on e window pane of my uncle's neighbour's house.. Wow.. it s so beautiful! n it din fly away even i moved near to it, took its pic. So cute! but i think this bird s a bit dumb~ it shud learn to protect itself, my dear..

mayb it s injured... cannot fly.. mayb it jz knew tt i m a good person who wont harm it~

hehe..

Weekends at home

Since now i m working in sg, from mon to fri only, i go back home every friday
So, wat do i do at home??

My typical weekend:
Friday:
By the time i reach, it wud b around 5pm. So i shower, take a nap, dinner.
Dinners r usually so-so on fridays, cos mum needs to work
After dinner, watch tv, read Sinchew Daily of e week
Then sleep early cos it s rare to b able to sleep early!!
Somemore, i get to hug my dear soft toy bear n sleep on my lovely bed!!!! wow!!

Saturday:
Wake up at around 9am, since no1 wud disturb me
Mum wud even put down e curtains for me.. so nice
Breakfast.. normally s bought by mum, brought back by dad
Then prepare my lunch
Watch drama series downloaded throughout e week using home pc
Read papers..housework.. online..
Late afternoon.. mum n dad come back. chat. prepare dinner. eat snacks
Bro comes back.. dinner(sat dinners r ALWAYZ sumptious!! cos mum has more time to cookk!!)
Chat.. drink chinese tea.. internet
sometimes go out to buy stuff v family
Sleep!!

Sunday:
Wake up at around 9am again. Go out for breakfast v grandma.
Come back, prepare lunch, watch movies, read...
Lunch (normally i m still full at this moment)
Then prepare to come back singapore
Reminders n reminders r all around.. Post-it notes written "Charger", "Sandals" r everywhere cos i tend to forget things~~
Reach uncle's house, sit in front of my laptop n slowly spend e remaining hours of my weekends...

ya this s how i spend my weekends...
slack~~ hohoho....
but then i think this s not a good way
no exercise, no meaningful activities except family bonding

Any suggestion to help me to force myself into exercising??

十年树木，百年树人

老师很伟大。真的。记得你第一天去念书时，在幼儿园里面笨笨的，什么都不会吗？
现在，你所会东西可真多呢。。多亏老师耐心的教导。。。

才当了几天的老师，我就喉咙痛，豆沙声，流鼻水了。。。
各种各样的学生都有，有些上课专心10分钟都难，有些讲话讲不停，有些平时讲话大声要他回答问题时却小声到像蚂蚁一样~~

刚才改了一班中三生的“校园报道”。。。。超过一半给我记叙文，有些不知道到底文章是在表达什么。。。有些还要先翻译成英文后我才知道他们想要写的是什么。有的经过我的批改后，变得面目全非，根本就是我在帮他写~~~

然后又改了练习题，刚才在班上已经和他们讨论答案了，交上来的答案很多还是错的~~~我刚才是在向空气讲话吗？~~~~~~~~我晕~~~~~~~~~~~

各位老师，祝你们身体健康，长命百岁！！不要轻易吐血~~~~


谢谢那些曾经教过我的老师。。。教我应该不会很难吧？？但愿我的学生都像小时候的我一样听话。。。（臭美！！！）

告别2007

今天是2007的最后第二天了。。回顾2007，对我来说今年过得还蛮充实的！（当然啦~有哪一个jc学生的生活是空荡荡的~)

2007我做过的，比较特别的的事(not in chronological order...)

1. Our first concert--Harmoc n guitar concert 2007! my effort s all there! n also Singapore Youth Festival!!

2.sandcastle building--hello? not small one, but big ones!!

3.walked from AJC to sembawang beach-- twice!! (chased by dogs at 3am~~)

4. slept at pavilion twice--once at sembawang park, once at east coast park

5.cycled at 2am~ at east coast park

6. stayed up e whole night, clubbing, McDonald-ing, sitting by SIngapore River

7. Drank alcohol in a pub(well, one sip only~i m a good gal pls~)

8. Went geylang, saw a prostitute who looked like 50-year-old sailormoon

9. Went sentosa a few mins after some1's suggestion, during A level period

10. Spent most of my non-sleeping time in study room for months..

11. The most number of times i cried in a within e certain period-- so stressful.. so sad.. so touched.. in dilemma.. anger....so many things for me to cry

12. Survived through my A level!!

13. Performed in oldham hall performance fest-- as an auntie~, oldham hall drama--ke lei fe only lah~~

13. Prom!

14. Watched e so-far-most-beautiful-i-ever-seen fireworks in sg

15. Left Oldham Hall.. n din cry when i left!!

There r also things tt were really memorable, which are either too sad for me to mention, or jz i find them unsuitable to b posted here. But no doubt, they are carved deeply on my heart.

SO, 2008 s coming!!

This s really gonna b a year v uncertainties. I dunno wat i wil b doing in this year, where wil i b staying.. will i b studying o working or travelling or wandering? wat r my temporary jobs--teacher or DJ or babysitter or jz some operator? will i b studying in sg or australia or malaysia? will i b studying pharmacy or speech pathology or health science or media?

For 1 thing i know, I m gonna b Happy!! this s wat i really can choose without hesitation!!

2008 HERE I COME!!!

叫我许老师！！

我要当老师了。。。在新加坡一件邻里中学教华文和生物。我是这间学校的唯一一个teaching intern!!!教华文应该没问题吧！生物？呵呵，要开始读中学的生物课本了。
昨天去了中学看看，校园挺小的，教职员人数好像也不多。见了我的supervising teacher,是母语部的主任。和她聊了很多，包括她的教学宗旨，我的责任，接下来母语部要推行的计划等。她还告诉我这间学校的学生有时会很顽皮，老师说什么都听不进去，有些还会顶嘴。（主任说我是辩论员，面对顶嘴的学生应该不会有问题~）
看来我这一个月有很多事情可以忙的了。从来没想过我的第一份工会是教书，而且老板还是新加坡教育部。呵呵，昨晚新闻报道新加坡教师薪金将增加，拥有3年经验的教师年薪有5万多块新币。。。不错不错。。会不会有一天我去当老师呢？看看我这一个月来的表现吧！
新年后我就要去NIE上3天的课，然后观察一个星期，接下来就我上阵教书了！加油哦！

My sweet little niece

My niece s has been staying in my house for a few weeks

This 7-year-old gal s very cheerful, witty, talkative, sensible, naughty, chubby, fair... (er herm.. many relatives said she s exactly like me when i was a little gal)

Yesterday night, i was checking bus service online... seeing me checking maps n laptop, she asked me wat i was doing.. i told her yiyi s going to work in sg.. need to take k of myself, find my own transport. Then, this little gal said in a very serious tone, 姨姨你要好好保重。。haha..笑死我。。又很感动~~

after tt, she said she wants to help me find jobs in kuching~ suggested me to sell wan ton noodles in kuching~then she said cannot cannot.. yiyi shud b teaching.. so she said she wil help me to ask her sch to c whether i can teach there..haha..

later, i told her i m going to jb today, going to sg on 27. After some while~ she was crying!!! cried v tears~ i asked her y.. she said, 姨姨明天就出去了，晚上又没有回来，我27号要回kuching了，这样我不是又没有见到姨姨了？？then tears rolled from her eyes~ omg.. i nv know she s so attached to me~i always kacao her, tease her, n joke v her~ n she likes to say 我讨厌姨姨~~

我看她哭到这样可怜~很心疼~就抱抱她。。after tt.. my sis told me my niece was saying, "after i go back kuching, yiyi wil go sg, then yiyi wil go australia.. my sch holiday s in march. yiyi dun hv sch holiday in march!! then i wont c her lah?? she wil go there for 4 years leh.. by e time she graduate, i wil b studying in uni already!!"(ops.. this one she s kind of naive~ she has many more years to suffer b4 she goes into uni~~) then she cried somemore~

aiks.. such a sweet gal...

as i m blogging, she s concerning how long i wil b staying in sg, wat time i wil leave home tmr~~

Game rules:For those who are being tagged, you need to answer 20 questions (choose any 19 questions from the one who has tagged you, and add 1 question of your own). Send it to at least 8 bloggers and you will get all the blessing from everyone. You can't tag the one who has tagged you.

1. What is your dream when during your childhood?
No need to sleep, so that i can play n watch TV all the time..

2. You prefer rainy day or sunny day? and why?
Rainy day. A nice weather to laze n sleep for e whole day!

3. What colour do you like most?
Baby blue

4. If you ever have a chance to tell 1 phrase to your love, what would it be?"
I love u (e simplest yet the most meaningful sentence..)

5. Which place in the earth do you want to go the most?
The place where my loved one is situated..

6. What would you do when you are in deep sadness?
Cry

7. What do you scare to lose in your life?
The drive to move forward

8. If you ever meet someone that you love, what would you do to her/him?
A hug. Hugging is the best language to express love. (copied directly from waikit)

9. List out 3 good points of the one who tagged you.
Sensible, sensitive, critical in analysing

10. Until now, what is the moment that you regret most?
So far, no

11. Which type of person you hate most?
Selfish person

12. What is your ambition?
Contribute my best to the society (Dun laugh, i mean it.)

13. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad.
Do not care abt other ppl's well-being

14. Christmas is coming, who would you like to celebrate with?
My loved ones

15. What is the most important thing in your life?
Appreciate happiness

16. When do you wish to settle down?
Hopefully by 28, partly depending on my Mr. Right loh..

17. If you are given a chance to inherit a personal quality, what would it be? (My question)
Carefulness. I m a careless gal!!

18. If you ever want to let go something in your life, what would it be?
Nothing. All these bits n pieces make my life as a whole.

19. One food in your mind right now!
Ice kacang

20. What is your motto? Y not stay happy when u hv e right to choose between being happy and sad?

Tagging: William, Howard, Shan Zheng, Alan, Lim Kian, Jyy Yn, Jie Min, Samantha!

I love this song!!

The 1st time i listened to this song s when kianseng dedicated this song to peishan n me when we were waiting for SPM results.. it was played at suntec city, e fountain of wealth.. love this song so much!!

Marriage..

Went to my uncle's wedding banquet few days ago. So happy tt he s finally married!! I used to wonder y he cant find a suitable gal.. he s a nice man v decent job n look n family background, he s humourous~ finally he found his gal!!
Looking at e bride, i was thinking.. wow.. i think i shud get married earlier, b4 30... if not when i bcome bride, i wud hv wrinkles, crow's feet n everything tt shows my age.. aiks.. bride shud b very pretty d mah.. i m not pretty already, still add on all these meh.. dun want dun want~~

Then, i used to think i want to hv 3children.. but, yesterday as i went to e banquet, i met many relatives. Suddenly i hv soooooooo many cousins.. wow.. nv realised tt there s a baby boom. No doubt they r seriously cute, but then v so many kids running around.. it looked quite scary. My aunt, who has a 1.5 year old boy was busy chasing the super energetic boy... he ran to e stage n tried to destroy e sound system. Another 3 cousins were on stage also, trying to figure out how come e cake s fake, y e mike cannot work, how does e champhagne taste~~ omg.. as one of e "adult" sitting near e stage, i was busy chasing them too.. i cant imagine if all of them r my kids while i still need to work at day time~ i wud pengsan~~~

MArket..

Went to e market v mum today
DIn go there for quite some time already, since i went sg to study
Today sis n her family s r coming back from UK, i supposed mum had to buy a lot of stuff, so, as a filial (huh?? haha) daughter, i decided to go market v her
SKIP skip skip.....(e details like wat we bought etc etc)
bought breakfast at my fav shop.. OMG since when did they increase e price from 70cents to RM1!! ridiculous!!-- well, although e price s high, i still choose to eat tt cos this s my fav... bo bian~
went to grandma's house, had breakfast v her, chatted v her using TeoChew.. realised, my teochew s like my malay now~~ worsen since i went sg~~

Hello?? can someone tel me wat shall i do?

Now waiting for A level results, supposed to b a great time for me to slack, but then, hello? 19-year-old gal slacking for months? not quite sensible right?

So, actually i hv planned sth for myself:
1. I got internship offer from MOE to teach for a month, salary s $1000, quite a good program cos i get trainings etc etc
BUT! i m waiting for aus uni offer, which requires me to b in australia in early feb. So if i get e offer, i shall not work but use january to prepare stuff...
BUT! MOE wants my reply b4 22nd!! -- so i shall tell them e truth, tt i really want to accept e offer, but i may quit if i need to go aus..
2. Heard tt some frens whom i knew via Broadcast Journalist competition got some jobs from FM95.8, via phone call. Which means, i may get e chance too!!but then i m in m'sia now, even if they call me i wont receive e call!!! omg~~ ok.. i shall email them n say, "hello?? i m free n available!! pls approach me if there s any opportunity!!"
3. Shud travel v my frens in malaysia. But then recently floods r all over malaysia, somemore sis's family s coming back m'sia tmr.. i shall spend time v them right?? but after they go back i wont hv time to go around msia liao... ok mayb i wud hv, if i cant get any desired uni n course..
4. Wat if i really cant get any uni in Aus? i shall wait.. do some work.. join Work n Travel program to go US o New Zealand... then find some relevant internship to confirm my path..

oh well, seemed like i know wat i shall do liao.. haha.. blogging s a way to plan too!!

再见，oldham hall!

坐在宿舍房间里，等12点下楼吃午餐，然后就要离开这个住了2年的宿舍。。。

时间。。过得还算挺快的。。我不会说“不知不觉”地过了2年，而是精彩充实的度过了我的初院生涯。昨天晚上的prom,就是为我的jc life画上一个完美的休止符。(待续。。)

回到家了。。昨天回到家就睡到今天早上，因为prom过后整晚都没睡!

昨天婉欣走的时候和我拥抱了挺久，眼泪不知不觉地就流了下来。。真是的，不知道为什么这么多愁善感。但是，想想，这代表我们2年来所建立起的友情。如果我和她不算朋友的话，那么说再见不过是一句话，没什么难的。雪芬离开的时候也抱了我一下，我感受到泪水在眼眶里打转。。。我怕我是泪眼汪汪的离开宿舍，所以赶快就逃离现场了~~

午餐和佑春一起吃，收到他最后一个在宿舍的“lunch!” sms..呵呵，每天的午餐晚餐都会准时收到“lunch!”和"dinner!"的sms。不知道我们会不会在澳洲相遇呢？

weiken今天很迟下来吃，我受不了一再的向每一个离开宿舍的人说再见，所以决定越快越好的离开宿舍。所以没和weiken一起吃午餐了。

还好，我离开的时候佑春和weiken都在忙着check out，没和我临别依依，都是匆匆的说了再见就走了。josiah, ten, darrel都在宿舍门口送别。天空下着绵绵细雨，还好手上的行李有够重，分散了我的注意力，我一滴眼泪都没有流哦！

上了170号巴士，本来打算一路睡到关卡的我竟然没睡觉，忙着sms向班上的同学说再见。谢谢大家2年来的照顾。。。。新加坡，byebye!!

(说不定我还会在新加坡念大学~~~)

我的志愿

小学时作文的题目。。。小时候看到这个作文题的时候就会很庆幸，我的志愿嘛，这么容易的题目，洋洋洒洒的写了一篇，文笔通顺，内容切题，A!!可是不知道为什么，这个题目的难度好像随着我的年龄的增加而增加。。。前几天回家，看到小学时的通讯录，里面写的是40多个小脑袋瓜的联络方法，毕业感言，和志愿。原来很多小孩（我那个年代吧？）想要当设计师。。呵呵。。榜上有名的包括设计师，老师，医生，律师，不错，典型的“我的志愿”看看这些老同学现在的状况，大概只有一个人正朝着自己的梦想前进，在印尼念医学系。。其他的，还远着呢，不然就是像我一样，已经转移目标了。。转移目标？我的目标是什么？呵呵。。。很乱。。。待会儿要去agent那里问看我还来得及报名吗。。我怕啦，这个决定是目前为止我人生中最大的决定。我很幸运，经济方面没什么大问题，但是就是这个“我的志愿”在搞怪。。当兴趣和志愿有分歧，或是有超过一个兴趣一个志愿时，就会像我一样，"the road not taken”。。。。

生日快乐

说说我如何度过我的生日吧！
生日前一天晚上，头痛。很早就去睡了，因为知道12点时电话一定会响~
结果才睡了一阵，忽然看到两个人影在我面前，死命喊我起床~~原来是两个朋友买了雪糕当蛋糕为我庆祝。至于为什么是在12点之前呢？原来因为还有一个住另一层楼的朋友要一起庆祝！结果，我看他们吃了雪糕，然后再去睡觉~（要生病了还吃雪糕咩~）要回去的时候，朋友叫我帮她拿手袋，看到了一本吴若权的书。她说，呐，你的生日礼物。。我回应：“屁啦~”（没想到他们会送书本给我嘛~原本希望会收到一只小熊soft toy的。。）“是真得啦！”oh really?? wow!! 我很喜欢吴若权！！真的很喜欢这本书。。全彩色的呢~舍不得看。。

还没12点。电话响了。是我中学时其中一个最好的朋友！！打来祝我生日快乐的，因为知道12点一定打不通~感动~
12点啦！收到几则sms和电话..其中一则让我super感动--中学时的死党隔天有STPM试卷还等到12点才sms我。当然怨了一下，不过不要紧啦，真的是很surprise,以为她会考试考到忘了~
过了一阵，怎么少了一个应该会打电话给我的朋友的电话呢。。原来他通过别人送了我一只熊soft toy..oh my god!! 我这一辈子第一次收到soft toy bear呢，高兴到~~在床上滚，呵呵。。很怀疑自己的形象是不是很“我不喜欢绒毛bear~”，活了18年都没人送我呢~一个在印尼念书的朋友也很意外的记得我的生日。。和几个来我房间向我说生日快乐的朋友聊到2点，我就很开心的睡着了。。
早上一起床，惨，耳朵和喉咙很痛。痰的颜色竟然是橙色的，还有血丝。。很不愿意的在生日这天去看了医生。下午就和朋友去新山玩了！花了一个下午买了很多东西--原来我很typical,逛街的女生是不会累的，即使吃了药还是一样精神奕奕~
晚上本来要去danga bay玩，结果哥哥困在车龙中，还下雨~我们就继续逛街~
去哥哥家住了一玩，回宿舍。生日隔天才知道ahm做了一个小小的蛋糕给我，但是我不在！最后还是有吃到啦~陆陆续续收到很多sms,即使很多是迟到的，但better late than never!!

总之，生日快乐！！

我好幸福哦。。。

最近有几个人告诉我，“你开心快乐就好，这样我就开心了。。。”
oh my god...原来我的快乐会让爱我的人也感到快乐。。。
真是太幸福了~~~

...

忽然惊觉，我又即将经历一波离别。。不知不觉，两年就这样过了。从去年踏进宿舍第一天的陌生，到现在的默契，是通过不少碰撞，磨擦才造就的。和她们的友情，其实真的还算不上什么情同姐妹，完完全全的理解对方，但是和她们相处就像在早餐时喝美禄一样—一个惯例性的动作，那么地自然，但是早餐硬是不给你美禄，你还是可以照样活下去，就是觉得少了点什么。吃饭前要scan卡。出门前要book out。Roll call要到了不要去冲凉。右边那间冲凉房的门要用脚从下面勾着加上用手从门缝用力扯才开得到。住久了就会有归属感—不论你是不是真的很喜欢这个地方。

等一下国婷就要离开宿舍了。虽然我知道我们还是有机会碰面，但是住同一屋檐下，天天见面，一起吃饭出门逛街玩耍聊天煮maggie curry instant noodles的日子应该是没办法重演的。。其实她们第一次让我感受到姐妹淘意思。。就可以在她们面前提到自己喜欢的男生也不会觉得尴尬，有什么感想也可以马上和她们分享。。这两年的相处，应该是前世修来的福，让我遇到了一群可爱的朋友。不知道我会不会哭。很可能。虽然说经历了这么多次的离别，但是这次我应该还是没法做到那种“friends come, friends go“那种豁然的心态。。。

Bye bye...

一直都很期待考完试的那一天，考着一张又一张的考试，心中暗喜：两年的scholar生涯要结束了！终于要把压在肩上的担子暂时放下，休息一阵。。对于考完试毕业离开宿舍等我只抱着开心，期待的心。刚才和一位朋友聊天时，他问，我是不是又开心又伤心呢？huh?伤心？为什么？噢。。毕业也代表我得和这两年来认识的朋友说再见了。说没有感觉是骗人的，但是，friends come, friends go..所以，我只能在心中祝福大家前程似锦。。。我的gang，婉欣去美国，佑春去澳洲，weiken应该去美国，国婷丽英多数是在新加坡。。我呢？真的不知道。。。世界很大，所以。。以后应该是各走各路的，再次同住一个宿舍的几率应该是0。但是，我感谢老天，让我认识了一群要好的朋友，让我在新加坡的日子精彩了很多。。没有朋友我就不是我了。。。我受不了没有朋友，孤孤单单的日子！！开始担心我回家后会不会习惯一个人睡一间房，一整天看家里的墙壁，和电脑说话，等爸爸妈妈放工才陪我。。。。

biye

一直都很期待考完试的那一天，考着一张又一张的考试，心中暗喜：两年的scholar生涯要结束了！终于要把压在肩上的担子暂时放下，休息一阵。。对于考完试毕业离开宿舍等我只抱着开心，期待的心。刚才和一位朋友聊天时，他问，我是不是又开心又伤心呢？huh?伤心？为什么？噢。。毕业也代表我得和这两年来认识的朋友说再见了。说没有感觉是骗人的，但是，friends come, friends go..所以，我只能在心中祝福大家前程似锦。。。我的gang，婉欣去美国，佑春去澳洲，weiken应该去美国，国婷丽英多数是在新加坡。。我呢？真的不知道。。。世界很大，所以。。以后应该是各走各路的，再次同住一个宿舍的几率应该是0。但是，我感谢老天，让我认识了一群要好的朋友，让我在新加坡的日子精彩了很多。。没有朋友我就不是我了。。。我受不了没有朋友，孤孤单单的日子！！开始担心我回家后会不会习惯一个人睡一间房，一整天看家里的墙壁，和电脑说话，等爸爸妈妈放工才陪我。。。。

2 more papers to go!!

GP MATH ECONS CHEM r over!!!
left 2 more bio papers!

well.......
报告战情的时候了。。。
so far... math还好，econs全军覆没，chem普普通通，gp要看老天的造化。。。
bio...application 的syllabus 到底是什么连老师也不知道。。。
只能希望会和prelim一样容易。

就这样啦！

This s horrible...

it is 2.14am now
wat m i doing here?
damn it....i cant sleep
i dunno y
i hate this feeling
somebody pls help me to get into sleep, n grant me a good night's sleep
it has been happening

wat a sad request
let me sleep

A level s coming!!

A level s really coming.. wah..
a mixture of feelings now
excited, bcos after this big hurdle i can finally enjoy some stress-free life...
worried,bcos compared to UPSR PMR SPM, this one s really challenging...
not confident at all~~ haiz...
everyday study study study~~~
wah~~

nvm.. bear v it for a few more weeks!!
n freedom shall b mine!!!

I m a matchmaker

I hv 2 frens who like each other.. other ppl all can observe already yet they stil dun want to admit~
then ytd night, i jz want to kaypo, to know whether they really like each other~ so i persuaded e guy to confess to e gal~ talk talk talk for a while~ suddenly e gal told me e guy confessed to her liao~ wahhaah....damn funny weh~
both r my frens, especialy e guy.. one of my best frens liao.. hehe brotherhood!! few days ago he baru said if i want to join their "brotherhood" i hv to treat them bak kut teh.. siao~so rich meh
now he has to treat me for giving him e courage to confess.. hehe...

Feel like i m a matchmaker now.. haha..
anyone wanna confess but lack of confidencE? tell me tell me~~ let me counsel u...

不乖

最近我觉得我好像不是妈妈的乖女儿了。。。
昨晚打电话给朋友，讲了挺久，花了挺多钱，不乖
读书时想东想西，不乖
起床了，读了一会儿书又睡着了，不乖
收拾被单时，没有折，直接弄成一团枕头盖着，假假很整齐，不乖


考试要到了，还在写blog,严重不乖。。。。。

shopping spree..

today wanxin n ley ying n elin n i went out to do some shopping
not only "some", but super a lot... very tiring
for me to choose har.. study for so long o shop for so long, i wud rather study...
but luckily i got e things i want.. =)
bought a dress, a pair of shorts n a pair of sandals..
i really feel tt gals in shopping malls, especially where sales r held, r very horrible
accompanied ley ying to buy her shoes, i sat in a shop tt gv 70%discount
it s like.. battlefield~~~ omg~~
i think e guys who work there r quite pitiful.. everyday they c gals' ugly side.. haha
btw i think i wont ask my bf to shop v me.. very ke lian to make guys wait wait wait for u while u happily try on ur clothes in fitting room. But shopping v ur gal frens r nice.. like today everyone of us took one pile of clothes n tried.. laughed at each other in fitting room, giv comment etc etc... this s enjoyable~ luckily euchoon n weiken didn follow us, if not they will die there.. bored to death.. haha

feel quite guilty to spend so much time shopping.. mug now mug now!!
tmr s thanksgiving dinner....

残酷的口福

这是从星洲的网站转载下来的。。。看了觉得怎么人类这么贪心，自私。要吃鸡鸭牛羊猪鱼虾，可以，反正食物链就是这样，但是有没有必要这样残忍呢？不能够就直截了当先结束他们的生命后再烹煮吗？还有什么熊胆填鸭的，就一定要吃这些吗？如果吃来救命，就算了，但也要尽量用人道的方法！

殘酷的口福updated:2007-09-07 16:26:49 MYT
過生日的那個晚上，朋友邀請我到一家稍有名氣的餐館吃飯。進了餐館包廂，從服務員手中接了菜譜，朋友先點了幾道“普通”菜肴，然後在服務員強烈建議之下，叫了一道喜氣洋洋的‘團圓扇子’。名字這麼輝煌的‘團圓扇子’，端上來後，我們竟然發現只是一條首尾相接、形成一個圓扇形的鱔魚。我的反應比較慢，朋友卻立馬跳了出來，批評這道‘招牌菜’有點失真、過于夸大事實。那位跟那道菜肴一起出來的師傅，以動作解答了朋友的疑問。用手上的小刀，他將鱔魚的腹部慢慢劃開。只看到亮晶晶的、鮮美的魚子涌了出來，透明而潤亮如珍珠的魚子，一下子就堆滿了晶瑩剔透的盤子。或許，他停在哪兒就好。可惜，大師傅繼續賣弄。他說︰“這道菜肴的難度，在于尋找與采購即將產卵的母鱔魚。在制作的過程，把活生生的母鱔魚小心的放進鍋里的熱油中。受了熱，母鱔魚急于保護自己的卵，在護住腹里的卵的過程，便使勁的躬身。烤熟後，母鱔魚就躬成一個完美的圓形。”我們馬上給嚇呆了，驚訝的說不出話來。這個時候，他加了一句話︰“今天你們很有口福，這條母鱔魚，又大、又肥、又鮮。”口福？名字與概念都好。但，美麗與美好的下面，竟然是哀婉的、殘酷的故事。大師傅強調這道菜肴味道很好。不知道為什麼，拿著筷子的我們，就是不忍下筷，腦海里禁不住要聯想，亮晶晶的魚子，不止是小鱔魚的生命，還是母鱔魚臨死之前，為了維護孩子們的生命，掉落的悲涼與絕望眼淚。 （星洲日報/副刊•文：李國七•2007.09.03）

wah exam s very irritating~

haiz... prelim now.. i m still online.. haha~ erm... to relax myself a bit after today's 6hours 15mins of papers... crazy time table
luckily tmr i hv no papers... if not i will pengsan
e bio papers today r killers... e toughest paper i ever received...
haiz.. y shud prelims b so difficult?
or.. actual A level s so difficult as well??

y m i studying huh???
god pls send me salvation by teaching me math chem bio econs gp!!!!!



alright...finish kisiao-ing
byebye~

Curse the thief!!!

A hostel fren lost $400 in her room! $400!!! it s meant to pay internet fees.. my money s inside too..
wah this thief har... s really cruel! we suspect it s her roommate who did it. Her room r all JC2 students, so bad lah.. prelim now n real A level s coming still do this kind of thing.. make my fren has no mood to study.
Really hope tt there s God to punish those who do wrong things..
Stealing s a crime! if the person s caught, i hope tt e person will b expelled
Even if u really dun hv money, dun steal all lah!! $400 steal $50 still not so cruel. But...alright stealing $1 s wrong already....
earn ur own dollars if u want!

Hari Kemerdekaan

Yesterday was malaysia's national day..
Kuan Chin, as malaysian AHM organised a simple celebration in dining hall

Malaysian boarders, mainly scholars, gathered around a table, n we sang Negaraku..
suddenly, i felt a bit sad...
exporting scholars has become a common trend..
y r we here? Y there s no place for us in malaysia?
i wonder....

anyway, happy birthday to malaysia..
my home, my family, my frens, my childhood memories....r all there...
there s no other place i can love..

A road diverged to two..nope.. to many many many

The same feeling as i felt 2 years ago..
where shall i further study?
this time round, it s more complicated
When i was in form5, all i hav to decided s which kind of Pre-U or foundation
now.. is which country n what to study n which U n how much money i m expected to choose
is choice alwayz a good thing?
well... i shall not mourn, cos i m given e priviledge to choose, despite having all those restrictions...


exam stress s adding on my shoulders... Prelims, then actual A levels, then, boo~!!! all these will b gone n e past 2 years will jz b a dream, except those relationships v ppl i met in during my JC life....

If i hv Doraemon, i wud use time machine to c what shall i b in e future
do i hv doraemon? No
so.. i can predict my future

Queh Sera Sera~~

Nanyang JC Film Festival

went NYJC last night to watch films..
one film s acted by my fren shimin samantha, a really talented gal.. she can sing, compose, good in English Lit n Chinese Lit, can act, play piano n guitar well....(did i leave out anything? i guess so...). E film s romance film.. erm.. personally i find e story quite bland, but i like e edit of e film.. e scene when e guy celebrated gal's b'day in a classroom, v blue lights lit in a heart shape while they sat in e heart shape... wow.. so romantic lah~ but then if u really do this in sch n discovered by teachers u sure die

2nd film s a thriller... at first i tot it wud b funny.. cos thriller shot by students... i dun expect too much.. as long as it does not appear too boliao can already~
well.. end up.. whole LT shouted when e little boy ghost appeared.. then some other scary scenes followed...
er herm.. for me, i dun spend ticket money to scare myself.. but i din expect this thriller in film fest... n.. it successfully "cheated" me to watch a thriller~~~ haha....

one thing i want to comment s-- NY environment s much better than AJC!!! at least they hv space, more study areas~~ n.. it s not so old~
ley ying was laughing at us, saying tt normally flow through scholars wont choose AJC, only direct scholars will b sent there, cos we dunno much abt JCs yet till we study there.. n we dun hv much comparisons~~

aiks~~~ nvm i still love AJC, especially teachers~~
Non Mihi Solum!!
btw~ can math teacher giv me some consultation slot???

high salary woman~

heard from a fren tt her sis jz broke up v bf.. one of the main reason s her sis earns much much more than e guy!!
alamak.. how can this s e reason huh...
do guys hv such strong self esteem?
next time har.. if i earn more than my bf, i will not tell him.. hehe.. jz keep e money to myself~~ such a briliant idea.. can spend e money on my own n not making him feel sad....

well... this shows tt i m a good gal...

一些想法。。

有人说对别人宽容就是对自己残酷
以前，我很赞同这句话，所以常常会对别人有很大的期望，而且要求多多
结果，换来的是别人对我的残酷

后来，我改变方法，能忍则忍，大事化小，小事化无
表面上我忍得住，但是心里却忍到精疲力尽。。。
有时不是心理，是生理上的疲累。。
这验证了对别人宽容就是对自己残酷

人与人的相处是一门非常深奥的学问，不是哪一位大师哪一所名校能教的，要靠自己慢慢摸索，找出窍门。还有一点我觉得很有道理的是：相见容易相处难。。。大概是要让两个人慢慢磨掉自己那刺人尖角后才能和平相处吧?不然就要学着如何裹上厚厚的保护层，避开摩擦。。。可是，人不是应该坦诚相对的吗？

宽容和残酷的平衡点在哪里？坦诚还是遮掩到什么程度是最好的？
我还是捉不到。。。

Blood stains~~

Any idea wat happened? haha.. leying played badminton without wearing shoes.. n this s e consequence!! so scary.. she didnt aware at all until e badminton court s filled v patches of blood stain~~~

School Graduation Certificate..

I was writing my SGC when i suddenly feel like writing blog..
Haiz.. SGC s really a great opportunity for those who like to boost their achievement to do so.. every sentence u write, u hv to phrase it in e way tt ppl will feel tt u r such a wonderful, 天上有地下无....

flipping through my senior's SGC, i realied tt throughout the college life, i didnt hv much "achievement", all i hv r many many many activities. Ａs i write, many memories flashed back in my mind.. well.. how good can SGC reflect ones' quality? i m not sure.. everyone s trying hard to "sell" himself.. i guess our future employee will hv the ability to b critical to all these writing, if they went thru Project Work n did "Evaluation of Material", know how to assess e reliability of data... haha...but wat i know is that i really learnt a lot in my JC life... tough, yet enriching

haiz.. can i write sgc in an emo tone?? i m better in writing emo articles, not factual essays.. as reflected in my poorly written GP essays n my "artistic"articles published in books...

070707 a chinese drama

070707.. a wonderful date~~!! but i had a normal saturday..
however i went to tiong bahru plaza to watch a chinese drama.. e feeling was great!! soft breeze blew on my face, sitting on traditional "tikar mengkuang", i took a sip of free chinese tea while enjoying e amusing n sarcastic drama. E main theme s to "suan" singapore gov for things happen recently like increase in GST, building casino but ban mahjong competition, general election tt alwayz gives same results... n singaporean's attitude like dun want to participate in politics, elitism, n recent cases of ppl commiting suicide by jumping into MRT tracks..
some abbreviations they used:
GST=government says thanks
ERP=easy-easy raise price
NETS=now everyone tam sim

n many many more~~~

had a great night!! but e only bad thing s i went there alone.. as i was watching, how i wish i hv someone sitting beside me n laugh v me!! well.. bo bian lah.. ppl around me doesnt seem to hv interest in chinese drama.

if i were to study in singapore U, i think i will join them in acting!!!

报纸

从大概5岁起，我就开始看报纸了。。。呵呵，5岁的小娃娃认得出几个字？
我就从讣告开始看，因为里面最多数字，什么孝男孝女的男字和女字啊，农历几月几日啊，我都还看得懂。小小的我会把报纸摊开在地上，整个人坐在报纸上面大声朗读，遇到不懂的字还要念“不懂”--所以我的新闻报道就是”。。于3月初五寿不懂正不懂~~~~”

后来长大一点了，认的字也多了，就开始看节目预告。好像在看故事书一样，很精彩哦！！然后，为了要验证我从报纸文字上了解的是对的，我就会看电视节目（呵呵，很堂皇的藉口~~）

再大一点时，我才开始看新闻，但看得也是大柔佛版，哪里的路灯坏了没人修，谁家的孩子失踪。。。都是些小小的新闻。。渐渐的，上了高小，老师要我们参加什么常识比赛，为了那个金光闪闪的奖杯，我终于开始读“正式”的大新闻。当然，国际新闻我还是看不太懂，但是轰动国内的新闻我还是略有所闻的。记得4年级时还参加了剪报比赛，当时刚好是台湾921地震，我就和组员作了一本关于地震专辑，赢了一个小小的奖杯。。。

渐渐的，看报纸成了我的习惯。我们全家一天没有报纸就会很不舒服，因为大家起床后刷牙洗脸后就是看报纸，已经成了生活的一部分。每次公共假期前夕爸爸就会去买另一家报社的报纸，好在假期早上也有报纸可以看。其实正份报纸里面我最喜欢的是副刊，可说是百科全书，应有尽有。从食谱，家居生活，医疗保健，生活品味，到升学情报，旅游介绍，从寓言故事，爱情小说，武侠小说到社论，马华创作。。。。看得我目不暇给！平时看电视妈妈都会唠唠叨叨说我浪费时间什么的，看报纸就绝对不会！！呵呵，对我来说这是很好的消遣哦！

上了中四，我还当上了学生记者，常常会看到自己的报道或是创作见报，开心得很啊！还有一些稿费当报酬，真的是很不错！只是赚到的钱都还不足我跑学记活动~~~

现在去到了新加坡，看报纸变成了功课，必须阅读来应付我的general paper,加上看的是英文报，我的兴趣也没那么浓厚了，因为~~我觉得好像又回到了那个“不懂不懂”年代，好多字看起来都很陌生。。。。常常在图书馆里看新加坡的华文报，总觉得少了很多该有的东西，排版看不惯，用字不是太过浅白，就是太“中国”，看起来很不是味道。。。每次假期回家，我都会兴致勃勃地翻出旧报纸来慢慢看，还是马来西亚的华文报办得好！！但是比较起来，马来西亚的英文报就太逊了~~~感觉上就像看新加坡的中文报一样。。

无论如何，看报纸的确为我的华文打下了稳固的基础，语文能力也因为报纸变强了，当星洲学记的日子也让我学到了很多待人处事的道理和宝贵的经验。

After Famine 30...

I hv done it!! I went through 30 hours of starvation, n i m alright..
Well.. honestly i dun really "learn" much from e camp, bcos e info given there r alr in my brain, inserted by my GP teachers as well as newspaper.. so i dun really feel shocked when i m exposed to e cruel facts related to starvation, poverty, AIDS, etc..

However, there r some feelings tt i strongly felt during e role playing. E following experience s based on my role n e camp... :

I m a Mynmar little girl, living in a family of 15. Only 2 of my siblings are healthy at e beginning. E rests hav AIDS, blind, mute, cripled or hv arm injury. I m born healthy, but my sibling (wanxin) s cripled, so she had to rely on me... we hv to go wherever together (v our legs tied together). So, as recommended by gov, we hv to go for vaccination. I was given money to go for vaccination, thank god.. our goal s to hv enough food, clean water and education.
However, e hospitals n schools n water n food stations r not alwayz available due to some reasons. I had to queue up n wait, sometimes i even wait for nth.. Finally i got my vaccination..
Erm.. my family s poor but i want to hv education. So i went to find jobs. Without edu, i cant find proper jobs. As i was walking, somebody approached me to do a high pay job, saying tt i dun hv to do much.. so my frien n i who r innocent n knew nth much, jz took up e job. Eventually, i knew tt e job s prostitution.. But e pay s high, n my family need food n money, i had no choice but took up e job. Out of my expectation, i got AIDS!!! so i had to go hospital on hourly basis. E money i earned from prostition s 2o, bt each AIDS treatment costs me 18!!! luckily my sibling who s a prostitute also didnt get AIDS, so she uses wat she earned for my treatment...

At this moment.. i felt quite sad for my role.. but this s wat s happening in many places in e world.. Kids hav no knowledge, no choice, no access to basic necessities.. n they r forced into prostitution, drug dealing, organ dealing.. things like that.. When my role s infected AIDS, i had to wear a black rubbish bag tt label me as AIDS patient. Although it was a role playing that lasted for a few hours only, i felt a bit "discriminated" when i contracted AIDS.. n luckily it only lasted for another 3 hours after i kena AIDS, if not i wont hv enuff money to continue my treatment, n i will die... n i understand tt in some those circumstances, ppl had no choice but to do illegal job!! i even thought of stealing n robbing if i need to continue my treatment.. this s how problems arise!!!

Alright now back to reality.. i m going to do a report on Famine3o tonight on FM95.8
Hopefully this can create some awareness for youths in singapore.. n do sth abt it...

Going to starve myself tmr...

Tmr i m joining famine 30 hour camp organised by world vision..
i alwayz wanted to join this camp since i joined cadet of reporter..
due to many many reasons, i jz didnt manage to join
finally i can join this year!! but it s in sg, i wonder there will b any difference

well.. i m a little little bit worried now...
30 hours without food.. erm... shud b very hungry i guess? nv starve for so long...
but i do hope tt it will b a meaningful one..
i dun want myself to go there n jz starve myself without learning anything..

Just now i was chatting v wanxin abt OCIP tt she went last year..
wondering i shud join this year..
mayb i will jz giv myself a try?
heard tt it s not as "meaningful" n "beneficial" to both students n beneficiaries...
mayb i shud try sinchew daily's program in teaching chinese in poor countries?
erm.. it s going to b a long term commitment.. n i wonder if i can put down things to get involved...


anyway... study!!! aiyoh kaiyee ar mid year s coming~~!!!!!

一首歌，一个故事。。

有人说，音乐是最能够走近人的心灵的艺术，我绝对赞同。戏剧，舞蹈，画，雕塑等，对我来说都太过个人了，作者很难将他要表达的传到我的心中。然而，音乐就很容易让我感动。。。我的艺术细胞并不强，所以我指的音乐多数是流行音乐那琅琅上口的旋律，和那像白话文一样简单明瞭的歌词。。。。

“那是我们都回不去的从前。。。。。”光良的《少年》，不知不觉会让我想起毕业时的无奈和不舍；“每当夏天我吹着温暖的风，我们的故事简单却很生动。。。。”诉说着中五时和大家为了华文学会和各种各样的比赛一起谱写的故事；“至少我们有一起吃苦的幸福。。。”和“与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有至今我仍深深感动。。。。。”每次听到这首歌时，和学记朋友一同办活动的酸甜苦辣都会浮现在脑海中，挥之不去，让我很想再回到学海的怀抱。“因为我们是一家人，相亲相爱的一家人。。”学记队里面最好用的武器，每次听到这首歌我就会觉得自己是这个家庭的一分子，应该要赴汤蹈火做学记的工作。记得不久前在学校听到这首歌，我毫不犹豫的就打电话回家乡给学记里面最好的朋友，就只告诉她说我很想念她，听起来很废，可是当时她很感动。。。“为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲。。。。”呵呵，我应该不会忘记毕业旅行时伟邦用他那很“感人”的歌喉来为我们高歌一曲。。。


“我曾经为你熬夜，只为了做你的生日卡片，一起熬夜，一起在网上废话连篇。。。。。”虽然这首歌的本意是要形容同窗之间的故事，但是这两句对我来说却像是在谈一场远距离恋爱，希望能用生日卡，msn, skype等来给爱情灌溉。。。光亮品冠的《身边》，呵呵，有这样淡淡，却很实在的爱情感觉应该很不错吧？有心爱的他在自己身边，即使做的是日常生活中最普通的事，感觉应该也很幸福，很满足吧？坐在你的身边是种满足的体验，看你看的画面，过你过的时间。。毕竟不是每一对情侣都有机会常常坐在彼此的身边，感受彼此的气息的。。。最让我感动的一首歌是林俊杰的《会有那么一天》，爷爷奶奶的爱情故事。。。没有轰轰烈烈，只有对彼此信任，让战争和生离死别也分不开他们的爱。。。“微笑再美再甜不是你的 都不特别 眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰 又是晴天。。。。我只对你有感觉。。”这首歌真正感动我的地方，不是歌词，不是旋律，而是它背后的故事。。。对我来说，他是意义非凡的。。。。“我只对你有感觉~~”

blogging s meant for???

recently i was asking a fren y he seldom update his blog..
he said he found tt blogging s quite meaninglesss...
cos he cant write too personal things in his blog, although not many ppl wil read it.. but some who read will help him to spread unnecessary news..
2nd thing s since not many ppl wil read, wat for he blog? he wud rather write emails to those who care abt him..

well...for me.. honestly i dun really blog how i feel, especially it s quite personal o related to religion o race.. but i blog abt interesting things i found in my daily life, to entertain myself o entertain ppl who read my blog.. that's all

my real diary.... i m e only one who knows where it is...

A memorable land expedition

jz came back from Delta Experience last night, n slept for 16hours in total.. haha like a pig
now thinking back, i think i wont forget the experience when my group was followed by 2 groups of dogs~~

it was around e last 1 or 2 km from the destination, around 3.30am
i was the last one, since i was the Student Instructor who wore reflection jacket
few hours ago i was sms-ing v william, he "cursed" me for meeting sth tt i wont forget in my whole life..
suddenly, i heard dog barking. I turned back, saw 1 dog.. since we were walking in group of 11, i wasnt afraid.. jz a dog, no big deal.
After a while, i heard a few more dogs at e back... barking in e way which s quite different.. sounded as if they wanna attack us
i was quite scared, thinking tt i mz take k of my camper's safety ( i wonder y i was so NOBLE at tt time) i called mr seng calmly, telling him our situation n exact location
he said he cant help us too cos he s far away...
then i started to panic.. called kendrik, whose group s jz a few hundred metres in front of us..
while i was calling, suddenly i heard another bunch of dogs on our right.. omg.. i cant imagine how many dogs r there n how bad e situation is if the the dogs decided to attack
i slowly moved myself into the groups.. cos i was the last one.. imagined my shins bitten by dogs.. ouch how painful it wud b...
continued calling other teachers, hoping to get more help.. cos even if kendrik's group come, they wont b much help also
then josiah called.. saying tt they try to send me help

after tt my group tried to stay together, hoping to decrease surface area... i grabbed a camper's hand, telling her tt i m scared...i searched myself, realised tt we din hv any weapon to protect ourselves, except for a whistle to get help... we all were terrified. but the guys in my group assured me by telling us tt they r at e back, even if the dogs attack, they will b bitten 1st.. quite assuring i must say.. sharlene wanted to run, we all stopped her... mathangi shouted when e dogs barked.. we immediately shut her up.. wat e hell lah.. SIs r supposed to b more calm shudnt we?

after a while, dunno y e dogs jz didnt follow us anymore.. we still dare not talk..
then kendrink brought an umbrella v one of his camper.. n slowly we crossed to e other side of e road to join the group.. still, no one dare to create noise.. i quickly called to HQ to make sure no other groups walk the area without escorting..until we finally reached sembawang park.. i was so relieved when i c some groups there v teachers.. thank god we r safe

then e campers started to share how they felt
they tot i was not scared at all when i was calling.. until i grabbed a gal's hand saying tt i m afraid.. haha good acting.. others said tt were thinking how to attack back if they r attacked.. some planning to punch, some saying tt they wud make e dogs into "hotdog"
aiyah say only lah~~~

anyway thanx for group 6 Flexibility... i m glad to hv u ppl in my group..
i was so exhausted after tt.. tried to grab some rest b4 sunrise
lying alone on bench, i heard dogs barking...damn... i jumped up n grab an umbrella n slept on e floor in pavilion, v another grp's ppl.. phobia already i guess.......

during reflection for the whole camp, all of my campers said it was the most unforgettable moment in e camp, ranking 1st in the list.......

yes i totally agree....

College Day

Last sat was college day...
Seniors came back to get their awards..
I was so happy to c them again.. it's like..... i was juz super duper happy,非笔墨所能形容真的是最适合形容我当时的感觉了。。。
看到seniors在台上风光地领取奖状，我在想，明年我有没有机会也和他一样拿奖呢？

晚上，Oldham Hall Performance Festival
又是很高兴，因为比赛的开始表示准备的结束！！很讨厌平时那些没有效率的彩排。。
william和善政都来支持我们，（呵呵。。。还是他们自己想不到节目呢？）
结果，莫名其妙的赢了。。。呵呵。。。奖品是一堆食物。。。。很好笑。。。

星期日。。5月20日。。国婷说5月20日代表我爱你。。。呵呵，很厉害link

今天，5月22日，中午的时候忽然间很stressed....现在很“不知道要做什么”
不用任何人回答，我知道我要读书
好。。。。现在就去。。


哎哟我很神经质啦。。。but who cares!! my blog s my story, i just want to write watever tt apppears in my mind now!!

Land Expedition Recce!!!

Went for land expedition recce... not very far, according to qin zhneg
it s ONLY 12.7km....
alright.. i was so tired yesterday n even fall asleep during tutorial.. sorry mr goh~
then interviewed jc1s juniors who gav me seriously shocking answer in scenario questions..

finally it s 6.30pm n all of us were ready to go. Well, many DE SIs dint turn up bcos of various reasons. so ke xi looh.. after some briefing, we set off!!
along e way, we talked, sang, laughed... quite fun. I made an effort to try to rmb e route of landmark so tt i dun get lost in actual DE.. it will b quite sia suei if i bring my group to dunno where.. haha..

after a while, we reached e 1st check point! yeah!! not as difficult as i imagine.. rest for a while n we continued... qin zheng walked quite fast, his pace s same as mine when i m rushin back from sch to hostel for dinner.. walk like that for 1 km s ok. But it s not fun to walk all e way in that speed!!

then... we walked pass a reservoir.. nice scenery.. nv expect sg to hv such a nice view also.. haha next time can pat toh here (eh find a bf first la~~) walked for dunno how far, we reached a yishun park. It was quite dark, n i heard tt SIs hv to stand like in e middle of the park..(shall not reveal more details~~) eh dun play play huh.. it s really not so fun ok.. i was bitten by red ants, not once, not twice, but a lot of times!! killed 2 red ants to revenge~~

there was lightning... followed by thunder at around 930pm... (Well.. melvin cannot differentiate thunder n lightning!!) but we still continue walking.. cherlyn's auntie-bag ended up on melvin's shoulder... haha... everybody seemed to b a bit tired already.. n my blister kept on reminding me of his presence.. eh i know u r there ok??? the lightning loooked nice, but scary too.. teacher reminded us tt someone was struck by falling tree few days ago.. but wat can we do? jz walk fast n pray hard n make sure tt u r not taller than e rests..

finally we reached sembawang.. ms tan decided to let us take bus, cos it seemed to b raining soon.. so we took bus!!! omg it s quite long.. imagine on e actual day we hv to walk~~~ v e bunch of campers also.. aiks~~

n we reached sembawang beach!!! i cud smell bbq smell.. so tempting~~ e wind at e beach s super strong, making me shiver a bit.. cos i was sweating a lot n e wind immediately lower my body temperature... cold sial~ better dun fall sick cos sat s important!!! (well... performance fest s sth tt i dun wish to attend~~)

after some debrieft, we proceed to pavilion n celebrated EC's b'day!! so cool.. if i were him i wont forget this moment!!

then, super super kind ms siao sent us back... it was not a short ride... n 5 of us squeeze at e back while b;day boy sat comfortably in front...

my legs was numb...........
byebye!! shower n going to sch now!!! collega day!!

我像忘了时间的钟。。。。

Feel like blogging.. bur dunno wat to talk abt also~~ a lot of things r happening.. n i m too slow to catch up.. i guess.. seemed like life pace s much faster than my pace..
can everybody in my life update me wat s going on?
i m confused... did it really happen o that was my dream? seemed like nth has happened, but e feeling was so real... well... e answer will b revealed soon...

dunno wat i m talking abt.. haha..
feel like eating dunkin doughnut now..
nv c it in singapore.. miss home lah...
papa mama korkor jiejie i miss u guys~~
feel like dumping myself on my bed, i mean my OWN bed at home n sleep for long hours......

one good thing that i shall celebrate is :
holiday s coming!!!! i want PONTIAN!!!




btw~~~ tutorials n proposals r waiting for my attention now..
byebye~~

信 vs 电邮

不久前朋友生日，想在他生日当天为他献上我的祝福，但他在离我600km以外的地方，想了想觉得还是以传统的信件或生日卡来传达我的心意比较特别

深夜时分，和他在网上聊天，电脑这端的我正在上脑筋要怎样做贺卡，另一端的他应该是完全不知道的吧？哎。。。用电子贺卡不久简单方便多了。。。但是希望他收到personalised的贺卡会开心啦！

做到大概凌晨12点半，终于完成了。。明天一定要寄了。不像电子贺卡或电邮，寄信是有lag time的。。。email或sms的话就不用怕会迟到。。。

糟糕。。。没有邮票！！明天是星期五了，一定要寄出去，不然就要碰上周末，一定会迟到！！
隔天早上，走了几家便利店都没有卖邮票。。没有SAM machine...还好托朋友帮我买。。

为了防止糊涂得我忘记寄信，我把信一直拿在手上。。。终于信寄出去了。。。


他的生日到了。在凌晨12点播了通电话去给他，心想这应该是最及时的方法了吧？结果寿星公睡觉了。。。。还是电话没点了。。显掉。。亏我还等到12点。。send了一封sms..隔天。。嗯。。怎么还没听他提起生日卡呢？哎。。。听他提到韩国的朋友从韩国打电话给他，让他很感动。。。看来我的sms应该是几百封里面的一封吧？？

日复一日。。。。
很多天过去了。。。怎么还没收到呢？上网察了察，惊觉我贴的邮票太少了！！
糟糕。。会不会是邮差要罚我一直以来都贴这么少的邮票，把我的信丢掉了呢？
担心。。。。

他终于收到我的贺卡了！
呵呵，从他msn我的语气，我觉得它应该挺开心的。。。嗯，开心就好！
看到朋友开心，我也开心啊！

隔天，还收到一封他的感谢email........但是这个猪头打了几个我看不到的华文字，害我要download别的program来看。。。不过。。呵呵。。。看了觉得麻烦download是值得的啦！（寄信的话收件人就不会这么麻烦了吧。。。就拆开信封而已）


总结：信件。电邮。各有千秋

A small good news...for me!!

Ha-ha-ha~~ a small piece of good news...
i m exempted from afternoon PE officially!
hooray!!!

i nv like afternoon PE since JC2.. it s at 3.15pm, which s still very very hot. N i seriously dun think that 315pm is suitable for PE
theoretically sun light between 10am to 3pm should b avoided
but Singapore s different lah!! everytime sitting on the track wearing PE shorts s a torture, i will e fat in my butt s slowly melting... then run, do conditioning on cement floor, often not under shade, unless it s really super hot!!
last year afternoon PE was ok, cos no matter wat NAPFA results i get i still hv to carry on v it. N it was quite late also, so e sun s not tt hot. We had dance during PE after NAPFA somemore! so fun!!!

now no need to attend afternoon PE.. no need to barbecue myself anymore.. haha.. since i came singapore so many old frens said tt i became darker. Of cos lah.. last time no need to walk under e sun, o in e rain.. my dear mummy will fetch me to tuitions somemore... only around once a week i hv to walk, n definitely nearer than from MRT to hostel....

but e bad thing s..... less physical exercise, consumption of food remain constant o even increase... wat wil i get???


ARRRGGGHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!
i dun want to b "CUTE"!!!!

敌人vs恩人

朋友转发了一个电邮给我，觉得很有意思。。

【人生】
仇人
與
恩人

給辛苦的上班族分享
!!
很有意思的管理故事：
仇人
與
恩人

大學剛畢業的時候，某電視公司請我去主持個特別節目，
那節目的導播看我文章不錯，又要我兼編劇。
可是當節目做完，領酬勞的時候，
導播不但不給我編劇費，
還扣我一半的主持費。

他把收據交給我說：
『你簽收一千六，但我只能給你八百，因為節目透支了。』
我當時沒吭聲，照簽了，心想 【君子報仇，十年不晚。】
後來那導播又找我，我還
【照樣】幫他做了幾次。

最後一次，他沒扣我錢，變得對我很客氣，
因為那時我被電視公司的新聞部看上，
一下子成為了電視記者兼新聞主播。
我們後來常在公司遇到，他每次笑得都有點尷尬。
我曾經想去告他一狀，可是正如高中那位同學所說，
沒有他我能有今天嗎？
如果我當初不忍下一口氣，又能繼續獲得主持的機會嗎？
機會是他給的，他是我的貴人，他已經知錯，我何必去報復呢？

後來我到了美國留學。
有一天，一位已經就業的同學對我抱怨他的美國老闆

【吃】他，
不但給他很少的薪水，而且故意拖延他的綠卡
（美國居留權）申請。
我當時對他說：

『這麼壞的老闆，不做也罷。但你豈能白幹了這麼久，
總要多學一點，再跳槽，所以你要偷偷學。』
他聽了我的話，不但每天加班，留下來背那些商業文書的寫法。
甚至連怎麼修理影印機，都跟在工人旁邊記筆記，
以便有一天自己出去創業，能夠省點修理費。

隔了半年，我問他是不是打算跳槽了？
他居然一笑：
『不用！我的老闆現在對我刮目相看，又升官，又加薪，
而且綠卡也馬上下來了，老闆還問我為什麼態度一百八十度轉變，變得那麼積極呢？』
他心裡明白，他作了
『報復』，只是換了一種方法，
而且他自我檢討，當年其實是他自己不努力。
大概前五年吧！

我遇到個有意思的事。
一位老友突然猛學算命，由生辰八字、紫薇斗數、姓名學到占星術，
沒一樣不研究。
他學算命，當然不是覺得算命靈驗，而是想證明算命是騙人的東西。
原因是有一位非常著名的大師為他算命，算他活不到四十七，
他發誓，非打爛那大師的招牌不可。

你猜怎樣？
他愈學愈怕，因為他發現自己算自己，也確實活不長。
這時候，他改了，他跑去做慈善，說：
『反正活不久了，好好運用剩下的歲月，做點有意義的事。』
他很積極地投入，人人都說他變了，
由一個焦躁勢利的小人，變成敦厚慈愛的君子。

不知不覺，他過了四十七、過了四十八，而今已經五十三，
紅光滿面、生氣勃勃，比誰都活利健康。
「你可以去砸那大師的招牌了！」 我有一天開他玩笑。
他眼一亮，回問我：
『為什麼？』
又笑笑：
『要不是那人警告我，照我以前的個性，
確實四十七歲非犯心臟病不可，他沒有不準啊！』

各位年輕朋友！
你喜歡逞強鬥狠嗎？
你總是心有不平嗎？
你有
【此仇不報非君子】的憤恨嗎？
一點心得
你要知道，
【敵人、仇人】
…都可以
【激發】你的

【潛能】，成為你的【貴人】。
你也要知道，許多怨仇、不平，其實問題都出在你自己。
你更要知道，這世間最好的 『報復』，就是運用那股不平之氣，
使自己邁向成功，以那成功和
【成功之後的胸懷】，
對待你當年的敵人，且把敵人變成朋友。
當
『冤冤相報何時了』的
【雙贏】
，
能成為
【相逢一笑泯恩仇】的
【雙贏】
。
不是人生最大的成功嗎？

是不是：如果你是正確的，你的世界就是正確的？

这些故事真的无时无刻都在发生。妈妈常常告诉我，多一个敌人不如多一个朋友，这个道理也是一样的。面对敌人会比面对朋友开心吗？换一个角度来看，世界会更加美好。。。

Malaysian's childhood....

I was talking abt childhood memories on my way back from sch v wanxin. Coincidentally i read this from my fren.. edit to suit my own childhood...

If you are Msia's 80s baby,read throughthis,

we grew up watching Transformers, Doraemon who speaks malay (TV3), Woody Woodpecker,Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask,Ninja Turtles,Ultraman n not forgettin POWER RANGERSn BUGS BUNNY!!!

had to brush our teeths during recessat primary school? had to hold plasticcups, line up with your classmates sideby side and start brushing our teethsat some open area... or maybe near somedrain??

do you still remember that we had'dentist' rooms where we had to haveourteeths check?not to forget our 'program minum susu'in primary school.. everybody issupposeto buy like cartons of milk that costed30 cents.. and you would see everyonedrinking it everyday...its d UHTmilk

the teachers who would want to punishus must use yellow rulers to hit us onour palms?? 1 metre length..that a bowl of mihun soup or some souponly costed 40 cents at the schoolcanteen... add one fishball u hv to pay 10cents more...

went to some sundry shop near theschool or to the 'roti' man waiting outsideourschools so that we can buy junk foodlike chickedees, mamee, ding dang withsome toys in it, 'Ti Kam', ice-creamandwe would play games like monopoly, uno,old maid, and all other card games likethat...

another fun time would be duringPendidikan Jasmani. the boys wouldplay football while the girls wouldplay netball... and it would be like wewere playing in the world cup...but of course. the best would be mainguli, batu seremban, bottlecaps, ice-cream sticks, 'Pepsi Colaone-two-three', Cops and Robbers, mainkejar-kejar duduk,getah... and for thenot so active, those kind of 'bookgames' where we would use buku latihanto draw and ask our friends to play...

do you remember the ice-cream tubeswhich are actually ice and colouringthat are sold for 10 to 20 cents.. thecolourful ones.. where you usually biteoff the top to glup it down.orangetastes b best..(pop-ice)what about days when we felt like doingnaughty things such as folding papersso small to make 'lastik' amd shooteach other... how about throwingchalks??

in computer class, we were still using 4 inches (forgot e actual size) floppy disk to copy games like NINTENDO..

May ah lan jie jie rest in peace...

Yesterday morning, cousin ah lan passed away... quite shocked when mum told me. She s still young, around 30+, not married yet..
It was quite unexpected for me, even though i knew tt she had leukemia since last year
however, during this chinese new year she still visited us, looked well..
my aunt was so sad tt she fainted for a few times in e hospital.
Haiz.. i think she s my most capable cousin from my paternal side, n closest to my family cos her job s in the same field as my dad's business

She merely caught a cold.. then fever... then that's it.. Her funeral s tomorrow.. I wonder my aunt s strong enuff to face it. Bai tou ren song hei tou ren...really painful
Life s so fragile..
Treasure everyday, enjoy ur life while u still hav it..

SYF!!

Today s harmonica band's BIG day!!!
We went for Harmoc SYF!
I was really high in e morning, cos we hv been practising hard, jz for this day!! yeah!!
CHoir was really nice to lend us their comfortabel choir room as holding room.. so we get changed, prepare, rehearsal....... N set off!!

reached there.. saw RJ n hwa chong n NJ ppl..
wow RJ's gals wore dress somemore..looks nice!
anyway, not quite in e mood to look at other ppl... focus...
very soon, it was our turn to enter tuning room
played for e vry last time b4 our turn
erm.. quite nice

line up at backstage.. while NJ was playing
wow they played very well!!! but that shall not affect my mood.. steady..
finally it's our turn!!
smile!! walk swiftly n confidently!!
started to play.. music of the night. Nice one..no mistake n i enjoyed playing on such a grand hall
much much much better than my previous experiences in AJ hall, AJ audi, AJ square...
next song macarena. Hui MIn's solo was good, no mistake!! feel happy for her cos b4 this she jz couldnt get some notes right
another enjoyable moment.. i conciously sway my body as i play.. hehe b4 tt we reminded ourselves to look immersed in e music.. there i was!! second song finish.. there was a small mistake.. but i dun think it affected much (eh u-know-who, u know i mean it!! u were great!)

then we watched other JC playing. VJC was good, quite creative n entertaining.. e rests... not very special

finally... results r announced..
AJ harmonica band, got a SILVER!!
well.. not very surprised, after comparing v other schs..
some of us were happy, some were sad
for me.. i m quite neutral
i did think of getting a gold. But after watching others, i think silver s fair
n i wasnt sad, cos we really really did our best!! n i think the feeling to hav a whole band working towards a same goal s amazing!
nvm juniors.. u all mz jiayou o!
we cant break d silver record, but sustained it...

however... i still rmb when our batch of exco was elected.. we promised to get a gold...
sorry..

My food drawer...

went out v wan xin eu choon wei ken... supposed to buy stuff for family day

ended up buying a lot of food for personal consumptin...

then.. as i put e food into my drawer...

i realised

i really

hav a lot of FOOD!!!!!

c lah... tell me how to not gain weight???

PW results!!

our dear AJC gave us a surprise... PW results s released!! n shortly after announcement, we got our results.. Our dearest PW teacher, ms sabariah was smiling away when i walked to foyer to c my results..

yeah i got A!!! so happy!! i think i nv get any A before since i study in AJC..except Napfa.. haha so pathetic right? my group of 5, 4 got A n one got B. Erm.. quite happy already.. although i feel quite "sayang" for her.. 1506 s one of e best classes.. we hv As n Bs only!! yeah!!

a scholar class didnt do well.. n their teacher was so upset.. haiz y mz scholars do well huh? it s jz normal ok... n there s sth tt i m not quite happy v is someone actually said tt those who didnt get A deserve the results bcos the results s e reflection of their effort.. well.. the person jolly well know how he/she has done during the period of PW.. anway, despite results, i agree tt i learnt really a lot thru PW.. especialy presentation skill n EQ..

btw........
i m sick again........
aiks......... cannot tell mum if not she will b worried n nag me....
hv been sleeping for the whole day n didnt go DE training... feel much better than last night!!

女人最爱的7种男人

女人最爱的7种男人

一、风趣幽默的男人最美。在女人生气或者遇到挫折时，幽默的男人定会别出心裁地利用语言和行动让她破涕为笑。
二、宽容大度的男人最美。宽容的男人能够毫不吝啬地包容女人的过失，能够宽待体谅周围的人。三、顾家爱家的男人最美。顾家爱家的男人会系一条围裙穿梭在锅碗瓢盆间，虽然样子看起来有点平庸，但对妻儿的那份关怀跃然其间，更能够让人感到实实在在的温暖。
四、沉默稳重的男人最美。越是那种口水乱溅的男人，越办不成大事；行动在前、声音在后的男人，往往不声不响间便做了一大堆的事。
五、辛勤工作的男人最美。因为这时，男人不但表现出了他不断进取的精神，更体现了他那敏捷的思维，干脆利落的处事方法，把工作做得出类拔萃的决心。
六、忠贞不移的男人最美。在当今商品时代，欺骗和背叛的事情越来越多，忠诚就越发稀少与重要了。对家庭对女人忠贞不移的男人必定能够吸引众多女人爱慕倾羡的目光。
七、处事不乱的男人最美。在危急关头能挺身而出、镇定自若的男人，必定能让女人感到安全可靠，成为她的主心骨和避风港。

对我来说，处事不乱的男人很美，因为我这个人遇到问题是最容易手忙脚乱，即使以我本来的智慧是可以解决的（臭美。。。）问题也会被复杂化。。所以我觉得处事不乱的男人很美

然而，能够让我成为更好的人的男人最美！！
当我的思想开始钻牛角尖时能够把我拉出漩涡，当我只看到负面时能指引我看向光明。。。

这样的男人不是没有，是我够不够好，配不配得上的问题。。。

Harmoc concert s over.. n my job s going to reach maximum point~~

Teacher-in-charge has been calling me numerous time after concert...

Realise that i hv to rush out things as early as wed.. especially when we dun go to sch on mon n tue, hv to do our e-learning stuff at home...

however... a success in concert s the thing that matters most...

seeing harmoc s bonded as a band, i feel so contented...zhi zu...one of the songs we played last night

last night b4 i slept, e songs kept on replayed in my brains....

Harmoc+guitar concert!!!

yeah finally harmoc combine v guitar concer s over.. i m soooo relieved now!! (although i hv to close e account as soon as wed.... v everything done...)
overall i think it was good, at least it was up to my expectation.. although there r some small screw up here n there.. but i feel tt it was really much better than my imagination
n e most important thing s... i hear my frens screaming my name!! wow cool!!! although i cant c them, but their support s there!!!
alright i m super tired n want to sleep!!!
byebye blog!!



btw today i went to e dark audi, late at night, only v wan xin n elin, after it was cleared n locked..quite scary.....

愚人节快乐!

昨天在宿舍的周会时，忽然收到朋友的SMS:明天是bio spa你知道吗?正式的！！”
我被吓到了2秒，然后才察觉自己上当了
心有不甘，于是就骗了另外4位。。。呵呵3个上当！！

结果呢，这个谎话就一直传啊传，wan xin身为bio rep也不停的收到同学来确认的sms..她也很合作的骗了人家几分钟。。。

晚上，和william chat时，告诉他我后悔下午没有骗他，午夜12时后就没得骗了
他说，还好没骗他，因为有一个传说是中午12点前骗人，被骗的人是 april fool,12点后骗人的人是april fool...
糟了,我在12点过后骗了这么多人！！！
又是等了2秒，我才想到我又被骗了

william我要扁你了！！你最好短期内不要来新加坡！！！

Ask us come... n wanna kill us....

saw this on a table in LT4 when i was practising harmoc..

come on.. wat s e purpose of writing this on the table? haiz poor ppl... cant find a good channel to express their views..

by the way y scholars mz b killed to save Singapore har?

i tot Sg s having brain drain n need to import ppl to increase population n strengthen workforce?

childish sial~~~~

swimming!!

yup today i started to learn swimming..marianne s my coach. I think her swimming skill s pro enuff to b my coach
arh i wont forget her if i can swim!! but so far today i only can move a little bit v e help from the float n marianne, in circular motion somemore~~~
still rmb last year when kuan chin, blue house captain asked me to join iron house in swimming, i said i cant swim!! he said aiya as long as u can swim can already..no need to care abt speed!!
i said: I CAN ONLY SWIM DOWNWARDS!!

alright..
i wanna learn swimming to save me from all kinds of pathetic scene i hv to go thru in future
i was rejected to join NYAA camp organised by ODAC cos i cant swim~
i dun feel like going to any island cos i cant swim if my frens wanna swim there....

hopefully~ i can swim..
no need speed... as long as i can swim can already!!

utility fees...

went to a CCA leaders meeting v principal v vp..
besides discussing problem tt other cca face, vp also told us abt how sch divide the pie-- 1.1 million a year for our sch
i was shocked when i c utility bills actually contributed 15% of the fund..
after a few seconds, i tot it was reasonable
singapore s a tropical country, but i hav to bring jacket to sch when i hv lectures
often, i m freezed in lecture theatres n auditorium.. argh.. so ironic right? the weather outside s so hot!! n i wonder y we cant adjust the temperature of the air conditioning in auditorium..
this s really weird.. many ppl wud rather b freezed than to adjust the temperature
take hostel as example, i know many ppl r feeling cold during assembly
n i actually caught cold several time b4 i cud switch off some air-cons..
now b4 assembl i will switch 2 air con off, n the temperature s jz nice! ( i dunno y i can adjust temperature)
PM Lee said one of the best invention last decade (o century? i forgot..haha) s air conditioning
well.. no doubt air conditioning s important for singapore, but pls use them wisely, too create a more condusive environment n not to add on burden.. lower utility bills!!

btw i dunno y i hav air con in my room. I dun demand for it n i can live happily without it
i hv to pay 20 dollar a month for it n get frozen..
no demand, jz create the supply n impose rules n regulation to force ppl to accept "merit goods"
merit goods-- goods tt r deemed by gov to b beneficial-- oic.. hostel s jz following wat our leaders said..

Everything s like a ball...

Took this picture yesterday, while we were having drama rehearsal...

Guess wat we were showing??

Sch s going to reopen, n we r not ready at all..

everything s like a ball of thread, all tangled up.. a lot of things to do, but dunno which one we shud start with.. so sad man....

i need topoisomerase to cut a nick n release the strain... omg so BIO.....

I m an ENFP

My personality test results

You are An ENFP

You love being around people, and you are deeply committted to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist


oh... how come different v my MBTI test done earlier in sch?
MBTI said i m ENFJ...
well..nvm..i like this one
i wud make an excellent journalist, hopefully!!

haha... mouldy blog

jz realise that so many ppl actually link my blog to their own blogs..so sia suei.. nv update since last holiday.. it has been months n i jz leave my pathetic blog here.. well... it s ok i guess
not many ppl will drop by d.. haha..
ok i will write short entry whenever i m free...
whenever i m FREE!!!

今天不是很有心情写之前笨珍游记的续集，因为今天有几位学长要离开宿舍了。。伤心中。。。

前几天看到马来西亚夫妻杀3亲生儿后图自杀获救的新闻，看了就很生气。为人父母者，虽然是你们把孩子带到这个世界上的，但绝对没有资格把孩子从世界上带走，一点都没有！因为自己好赌欠钱，走投无路了竟然还拖着孩子一起死，说什么没人可以伸出援手！！！拜托，欠大耳窿这种事不是自己无法控制的，而且今天也许亲戚朋友帮忙凑合了可以暂时还债，但是长久下去也不是办法啊！！自己的事还怪别人不帮忙！！3个孩子，就算以后没办法成就一番大事业，至少我相信他们如果不像父母一样一定可以在自己的角落里发光发热的。社会人士不应该在这个时候递上帛金，否则不知哪天有哪位王八父母有歪主意想靠这个来解决问题。

啊弥陀佛。。。安息吧孩子，找一对可以给你们生存权的父母来投胎。。。反省吧父母！！！

Pontian 1 day trip

William n Howard, my JC2 seniors in hostel came pontian yesterday. So, being the only person they know here, i planned for a long time so that they dun get bored in this small small town, which for me s a "not so interesting" place..

The 1st thing we did was eating wan ton noodles. I was quite surprised that they actually like the red noodles, which s rare in other places.. the sauce s made of tomato ketchup.. not everyone accept the noodles to b sweet sour d.. so 1st mission achieved!
Then, we went kukup. I think they felt that the taxi was lau ya.. indeed it was.. but to me it s jz normal loh..hehe.. On the way, it rained heavily.. I blamed them for coming late, cos I afraid that if it rains, then we cant do anything there!! But William s really lucky enuff, he told us it wont rain there, indeed the rain stopped!!
When we reached, I met hong huei on his way to kukup. Hehe..howard said he can c tt honghuei s anak ketua kampong, bcos of his size..haha. We bought boat tickets n waited at the restaurant. Saw many ang moh.. Finally it was our turn. Although this was the N time I took boat, I was still very excited..

Firstly, we went pulau kukup, the 2nd biggest mangrove island in the world. I was quite familiar v the place already, since I helped xue ji to organize a camp there b4.. but the bridge was still quite scary.. after that, we jz walked along the wooden path. Then it started to rain… argh…cant go to the airy to look for birds..

Then, we went to kelong. William n howard were so excited to c the sea creatures there, like sea turtle, baby shark etc.. saw giant groupers that can cost around 1 thousand.. wow.. cool right?? But the way they kill d fish was a bit scary.. use small knife to poke the gills.. the fish was still alive after that. Then, on the way back, we asked for permission to stand in front of the boat. Howard n I took a picture v “titanic pose”. Super damn funny lah.. all other passengers looked at us when we took that silly pict.. haha

Then, we walked around kukup kangkar n they bought cai yan kueh.. nice.. howard was a bit lauya, got tired easily.. then we jz sat in front of the caiyan kueh stall n chatted for a while b4 mum fetched us to tanjung piai

Tanjung Piai s a great place!! By the time we reached, the information centre was closed actually. But it s was even better! Cos we used the bikes that r supposed to b used for patrolling to go around the places. IT WAS FUN!!! We cycled along the board walk, which was quite dark at that time, scary sial… if u ask me to cycle alone, I WONT!!! My hp started to change to Indonesia line.. Finally we stepped on the southernmost tip of mainland Asia!!! I was so excited!! (mayb bcos as I cycled, my blood flowed faster..) Then we took many photos there, haha..fun!!!

***************to be continued**************

Happy Birthday to me!!

I had a very happy birthday!! B4 that, i was in singapore when i realised that many of my frens in hostel wud not b in hostel, n i was super duper damn lonely.. i didnt wish to hv a lonely pathetic day so i decided to come back pontian.. then, as usual, if got some ppl go back hometown, we sure come out to eat n talk.. then i went out v them to hv steamboat. The best thing s birthday gal can get to hv free steamboat!! yeah!!

it was really a great time together, cos all d frens present there r my good frens!! we chatted, suan each other, kacao hong huei, haha.. those who dunno hong huei cant imagine how fun it wud b v him around!! after eating many many rounds, we finally stopped.. then penguin them carried a birthday cake in, v special candles!! wow... they r like“yan1 hua1”… I dunno wat it s called, haha.. then they sang d song, I made wishes (they wanted me to help them make wish also…). Then I blow then candles.. wat d hell? Y cannot b blown off d? I tried again.. still cannot.. hong huei helped me.. also cannot.. alamak.. even if I blow them off, they automatically lit up again… I was so zha dao then I used chopstick to pick up the candle n poke them onto the spilled soup..hehe.. clever right? then they made me to use my mouth to pick up the super short candle..

The cake was delicious.. hh kept on saying we didnt really celebrate his bday.. so penguin asked me to use the cream to "kor" his face.. haha...

Then they gav me present n asked me to open…luckily this time nth weird already.. it s a pair of pillow..a white pig n a black pig.. so cute!! I like them so much! I always wanted to hv cute pillows o soft toys.. but dunno y I nv get 1 d leh..very sien..haha.. b4 I cud hug them, the guys grab the pillows n put under their armpit.. wat d hel1!!!! All of them took turn to “contaminate” my cute little darlings…. Argh…..finally when every guy did so, they gav them back to me… y I m so ko lian huh…

After that, we “sua tuah” to the stall opposite steamboat house.. very scary…so full already still can stuck so many food… then, went home, then, slept at 3am… cos I was a bit too full, haha

Above r my presents this year..wow..cool..

the big bag s from wan xin guo ting elin liying... hehe.. they gav me long time ago cos i kept on asking them to accompany me to buy a bag..they were afraid that i wud buy when i come back malaysia, so they gav me a surprise by giving me this when i was expecting a card game n maggie curry noodles at a normal night...

the doggie pouch s from my harmoc section X...cool right? they put sweets n ...tissue paper inside the pouch..cos choo hua said i alwayz need to tissue to wipe my pianica pipe..

the seaweed... s from alan..haha.. i m still wondering y he gav me seaweed as a present.. n he says this s his 2nd favourite brand.. y 2nd but not 1st huh?? anyway i like seaweed!!!

ok..decided to do this: use the big bag to bring the small pouch back to hostel, then lie on my bed eating seaweed v the cute pillows under my head..haha..

thanx frens!!!!

TeoChiew Opera

Went to watch teo chew opera v my mum yesterday. Initially we wanted to visit our relatives, who knows none them r at home.. So, we jz went to a temple that has celebration..

When we reached there, we were shocked... cos more than half of the audience were my family members. Uncle, aunt, grandaunt, cousins....... altogether 19.. after a while, my aunt n her family came, adding d number to 24. Then i counted the ppl who r not my relatives. ONLY 12!!!!!
(pict on left shows my family members, pict on the right shows other ppl in front of the stage)

when i was young, i used to go "watch" opera v my mum. Gradually i even knew a few parts of the opera.. haha.. i cant sing well lah.. my mum can really sing, sometimes even better than d actors. She told me wHen she was young, she loved opera till she nearly became an actor of teo chew opera. Luckily she didnt, o else my childhood wud b v the opera troupe...so scary...

besides that, i feel that teochew opera s really a sunset industry..cos all d supporters r 70+, 80+, only my mum n her frens r 50+...slowly they will lose the audience, n then, vanish...

BYe Bye seniors...

went out v JC2s seniors william alan shan zheng howard... n JC 1s r my gang elin euchoon weiken, but wan xin didn come..aiya..
shud hv taken some picts, but that great shan zheng brought a camera without charged batteries....... so... haiz...

feel quite sad cos they r leaving soon.. they r nice to us, especially william n alan. We totally hv no "generation gap" v them.. n even closer v them compared to some other JC1s... so now they r leaving, next year no ppl to play badminton v, no ppl to crap v n no ppl to hav meals v me liao........ i m so SAD~!!!! haiz..... i wish they r my batch, then we can hv 1 more year together.. budden if they r my year i will b very stressed also, they r super good academically.....

all of all.. wanna say thanks to them n also my frens in this pict (shan zheng is not in the pict, who ask him bring a laoya camera!!) u gav me an excellent year in singapore!! seniors, pls consider staying in singapore ya~~

Shall I pursue my dream?

<-- Hi, i m ur newspresenter...
will i b one?? according to katak, it s quite impossible....


Went to NTU Chinese media workshop last week, organized by NTU, subsidized by Singapore journalist fund… quite a good experience, I learn more abt journalism, diff type of news like internet news n TV news. B4 that, when I was a xue ji, I learnt abt newspaper news. Then when I joined BJ mission, I know wat s it abt radio news….. now I even learnt TV news!! N d most AMAZING part s my group got a small award for internet news making…wow.. very surprising, cos compared to other group, ours s d most simple n short n no much function… but when I was explaining, I tried to say to say this s bcos all other news website r too complicated n messy..haha…toook a TV video in a small saloon in NTU, well..it was a bad job... difficult to deal v e ppl interviewed.. then when we went mediacorp, d newspresenter lin qi yuan was my tour guide!! Wow… cool…

After all these things, I feel that I really love mass com, I think I shud study in sch of info n comm… this has been my dream since sec 2.. after form5 i still dare not jump into it cos i was afraid that it was jz a "hangat-hangat tahi ayam" dream, jz a little gal's dream, not ambition. After years, i still like this area a lot!! but then… m I d right material? The prof said my gp mz b better than B4… now I need 1 more mark to get C……… how…. My interest s there, but my capability may not b there yet… Alan said I can do it d.. there s still 1 more year.. but how bt my other subject? I studied a lot b4 I can get my “okay” promo results, n my maths still sucks..

Ah…dun k liao, I wanna get B4 for my gp in A level!! Jia you u can d!! Fight!!

我的自信心

自信 自卑

不久前回家时，一位中学的朋友说：诶，我觉得你已经不像是以前那个自信满满的凯怡了。
我问：是吗？以前的我是怎样的？
他说：每次考试时问你什么怪怪的问题，你总是说“考试没有问啦！不要想这样多！”现在却每次都说“怎么办咧？考试可能会出的，我不会！！

大概是吧，因为以前考得真的就像平时做的练习一样，稍微复习过准没错。现在的咧，讲义读完了请再读这本参考书，这本读完了请再读那本，那本读完了请再上网找。我咧，是没有这种意志力，所以通常读完讲义，再读多一本参考书就已经是很神奇的了。结果出来就是考试时题目认得我，我不认识题目。。。这种情况下谁还会自信满满呢？

还有一点很重要的是：原来我以前都是抱着“为了考试才读”的想法。。。有时向朋友申诉现在的课程比以前难的时候，朋友会说：以前某某补习老师都教过了啊！

天啊，原来以前老师在前面讲那些我听不懂的东西我这么快就要学了。。。早知道以前就花多一点时间学，现在就比较轻松了。。。。

PW s over...yeah!!!!!!!

now i dun even want to think abt my project already.. we hv been dwelling on it for months, n same script for weeks......... yucks...... 25 years later if my child want to get $$ from me to buy virtual reality devices i wil faint..haha.. IT S A GOOD PROPOSAL!! so i think it s really going to work lah..

hehe.. now no more sunday meetings in hostel, no need to go Wileen's house although her mum s super nice, no noeed to go jimmy's house that i can even c d sch behind, no need to beg liu qiong 2 let us go to her house, n no need to ask josiah to read through my stuff...yeah yeah yeah......

however, i think thru pw i learnt quite a lot : better temper, cos i need to face ppl whose temple s worse than mine..(haha...it's u lah....), more IT savvy (cos josiah alwayz wanna us to use short cut buttons like Ctrl+S......), n the most important thing, i realise that it s possible to memorsider a 5 minute long script!!! wehn i was preparing for my debates in sec sch, i nv ever succeed to go to d stage without cue card.... now i did it!! yeah!!

pw..once in a life........luckily.....